ping!

my fun weekend (even though today is only Friday)

2012-02-10T19:57:00.000+08:00

me and my gals (ijat, nad, dayah & jie) went to Kota Bharu yesterday. one of the sole purpose was the amazing, delicious, delectable, brain-freezing frozen yogurt at Tutti Frutti =)

(mine's the one with a lot of dragon fruit >.<)

location: Tutti Frutti, Queens Park. (thank you very much for such nice treatment ^-^)

afterwards, we went to KB Mall and after buying some stuff (i bought that thing below =p), we went to dinner at Pizza Hut.

the pizza.

and today, my roommate woke me up at 6.30 to accompany her in the effort of 'catching' a sunrise with her D3100. except for the fact that it was a little bit cloudy this morning so we didn't catch any sun (the rising or even the rays), it was nice going out in the morning fresh air. i snapped a photo of her (my roommate) ^-^ and the not-sunrise.

(but i only snapped a little bit of her. she doesn't like to be photographed - like most photographers. hehe)

the not, sunrise. takpelah, better luck next time. (this is also beautiful, you gotta admit >.<)

so that's it. my weekend. tomorrow have to focus on my homework i suppose, *sigh* =='.

but this was fun! treasure every moment so that when the moment is dull, you can always look back to the fun ones ;)

^-^

2012-02-08T18:49:00.002+08:00

alhamdulillah. been smiling all day. finally, a driving licence. thank you to everyone who was involved in the making of Husna, B2 and D licence holder. =)

thank you c123klubas.com for the awesome pic describing me right now.

much salivating~

2012-02-05T14:46:00.000+08:00

Today's lunch was prepared by:

(my rumate ^-^)

and these were the delicious meals =D

Telur Dadar Gebu ala Amira

Kailan Ikan Masin (by Hanim)

and, last but not least...

Tom Yam Campur ala Izzati

all tasted so fine and palatable - i'm thinking of making them making these again! haha =D

for those who wonder where is the dish that I made... well...

here it is....

just kidding. i can't cook. i was just a garbage boy =( (if you ever watch Ratatouille, you'll understand)

it's 12.07am & i can't seem to understand my homework

2012-01-27T01:06:00.002+08:00

(oke tipu.)

it's just... it's been a long day and i'm not in the mood to squeeze good, nutritious juices outta my brain to produce one graphic organizer about literary criticism, one critical analysis about common themes in five assigned short stories and answer a series of questions about whether human are developing the ability to use language or simply imitating it like a bunch of chimpanzees??? really, they are all really boring which i know just what to do but really, really, i mean literally, not in the mood to.

okay. phew. a few minutes there. (tapaham is oke. i'm used to babbling alone. ==')

so this Chinese New Year (CNY), i had some pretty amazing trips. IPG-ians got one week leave (because chinese mestila nak balik hometown. bukan kamu aja nak sambut raya =p) so Angah invited us (me, Kak Long, Kak Chik & Abg De) to his house in Kuala Lumpur to help him look for and buy a baby cot for his future daughter (due in less than three weeks at the time this is posted! ^-^)

but we didn't buy one because there was just not enough time to find one that matches his taste (and also, needs). so we decided to KIV baby cot and maybe he and his wife can buy that later (it's a baby cot, not diapers. she can sleep on the bed first right...haha..XD)

aside from baby cot searching, we managed to steal some time to go to i-city in Shah Alam. it's about 50km from KL (amirite, KL-ians?) and + traffic, it took us about an hour and a half to get there. but i-city was amazing!

i mean, like, yeah if you appreciate a good art of arranging colourful LEDs on trees and on the ferris wheel and toys (that goes straight up and comes down flying - which we were no good at =='). but snow walk was also fun! it's like a fridge so big you can walk in there and pretend like you're in Russia or somewhere really cold with lots of snow (ashem! bless you >.<) but be careful, it's really slippery in there. Kak Long fell twice (haha!) and i almost fall too but managed to control myself (phew!)

(dalam snow walk tak ambik gambaq. tangan dok ketaq nak snap gambaq lagu mana - padah dok texting dengan Luqman budak Kedah. ==')

and then... today i went to Kuala Terengganu with Abg De to pick up some money from Yayasan Terengganu (terima kasih daun keladi, Yayasan. lain kali panggil lagi ^-^) and then i asked him to go to Terengganu State Museum in Kg. Losong. mainly because i've been saying that i am a proud "anak Terengganu" but i've never been to the Terengganu State Museum and because, i really like museum. majestic artifacts, beautiful buildings, haunted stories and all =)

we weren't allowed to snap pictures inside the museum but here's some on the outside.

(oke, gambar kat atas ni amik sebab ada perkataan "Bukit Kuang". amat penting oke ^-^)

i think that's it. pretty amazing week, if you ask me. i don't always get opportunities to travel (mainly because i don't have a license yet ==') but when i do, i'll try to post about it. not that it's important to be posted, it's important for me to read back about my experiences ;)

oh yeah, wish me luck for my 2nd time at bat with JPJ. hopefully my luck will change. aminnn....=__=

Taufik Fikri

2012-01-23T01:19:00.001+08:00

happy birthday, bro! may Allah bless you and the paths you have chosen & will choose in the future - always. love you.

*thank u happybday.tumblr.com*

another clueless admirer

2012-01-15T15:31:00.000+08:00

and yes, that's me.

i'm sorry if the texts have been meaningless. they weren't for me. they were small parts of life that i have always cherish, probably always will.
but then again, i'm nobody. just a friend (at least i was. until recently). now i don't know if i should call myself a friend. i certainly didn't act like one.
and yes, as you probably have guessed, i've caught feelings. i've caught feelings bad. like always (this is not the first time i've caught feelings - although it is the first with you), i hope there is a happy ending for this story.

but that had never been the case.

i don't know why i act like this and i'm sorry if it has caused you great uncomfortable circumstances. scratch that, i know it has and i am truly sorry.

truth is, why did you have to pull that crap? (probably shouldn't mention it as 'crap'). i don't know what was it but it never leave me. i can't eat, i can't sleep. you are all i think about. God i sound pathetic.

feelings, please leave me alone. i've been through this once and it didn't end pretty well.

i don't wanna go through that again.

i don't know if this craziness worth something or not. i feel powerless. i feel like a crap. (i know, stop with the 'crap' but i just can't help it).

i'm 20 years old this year. does that mean anything? isn't my mind suppose to become super-matured or something? shouldn't i become more adult-like in dealing with this kind of heart-related matters? or 20 doesn't mean anything?

sad really inspired me. he seems like he is sure-er now. he knows what he wants. ("there's nothing sexier than a man in confidence." - emma, glee season 1). he's 21 years old and it's almost like he has turned over an entirely new leaf; at his utmost confidence about what he wants to achieve.

i think that's maturity.

and i think i am the farthest thing from it.

NatGeo Life statistics

2012-01-04T20:25:00.001+08:00

it's so awesome i had to share!

thanks 9gag. ripped it off of your website.

the story of a Kak Farah

2011-12-25T00:27:00.000+08:00

i was looking for a copy of my birth certificate (i left the original at the hostel ==') when i came across a bunch of memoirs which are related to Kak Farah.

Kak Farah was my senior back in secondary school. she's one of the nicest person i've come across in this world. we still keep in touch but hardly see each other because she's now in Jakarta, doing what she does best; medic and i'm here, doing what i love most :).

i first met her when i was in form 1 and she was in form 4. i saw her outside her dorm room and was tying her shoelaces, ready for school. the first thought that came to my head was:

"That's Kak Farah the talk of the school? (she was one of the best students) She seems mean."

can you believe my first impression of her? like 360 degree the opposite.

come next year, we were shuffled into different dorm rooms and to my dismay, i got Kak Farah as one of my roommates (it was 8 students per room back then). but slowly, my impression of her changed when she became one of the closest roommate ever. it really struck me that she really is a nice person (not mean like how i made it up in my mind for a year) when she waited for me, everyday in our room, so that we can have lunch together. at the time, she always got out of class earlier than me but she'd wait until my class is over and then proceed to the cafeteria.

and the list of nice things that she did didn't end there but for now that's all i remember.

to KF, i kept these pieces of you all these years. now i don't know if it'll stay kept (my mum has the tendency to throw out things in the house people don't touch for more than five years) so i scanned it so that me, you and other people who cares can see it too:)

she gave this when she was leaving school (i.e. leaving me)

below are the collection of notes she left in my locker when we couldn't see each other (she's a brilliant student so she's got a lot of other places to be at)

^ Assalamualaikum. Kak Farah balik dulu. Jumpa lg esok @ hari sabtu nie. -Farah-

^ Assalamualaikum. Laparlah. tp nak buat camne. Just kidding. I want 2 study Chemistry. How about u? However, don't waste your time because time & tide wait for no men. =) Kak Farah.

^ The last message 4 you.. 4 this week. Assalamualaikum.... Husna, check beg duit cukup x duit, kalau x cukup Kak Farah x tahu. -semoga dapat menempuhi 'black out' everyday! Mmm, Kak Farah sebenarnya suka gi kem tp minggu nie balik lah pulak. Husna jugak y best balik tiap2 minggu. Tak aci betul 'baby genius' nie. Ok lah nak gi study nie nanti 'black out' pulak... -I wish u good luck & happy always. =) farah

^ Assalamualaikum. - smoge cepat sembuh! -you make my life happy & meaningful besides full of sweet memories. Mlm nie Kak Farah study lewat sampai pkl 12.. kalau Husna x sihat, tidur jelah... ok! =) Kak Farah (x yah bls xpe, bazir kertas cute Husna je!)

^ To: Husna comei. Assalamualaikum. There is nothing that I wanna say BUT... 1. smile always. 2. complete ur homework. 3. happy go lucky. its me, Farah.

^ Assalamualaikum buat Husna y disayangi,

Kak Farah nak mintak maaf psl semalam. Kak Farah tahu Husna kecil hati dgn Kak Farah. Sorrylah sbb Kak farah x sengaja ok! Tolong maafkan Kf sbb Kak Farah rasa x tenang kalau sakitkan hati org. Anyway, it's up to you because only u know what u feel. Same as you, I'm also really appreciate ur appearance in my life.

Husna, doakan Kak Farah slmt pergi & slmt balik. Jgn sedih2, minggu nie kan Husna balik. Kak Farah jugak y kena 'kelas p'sediaan luar ngr'. Sbr je lah.

Balik rumah nanti, jgn lupa mandi, do your homework & revision besides don't forget to pray. Remember 8A PMR 2007.

Thn dpn mungkin kita xkan jumpe lg sbb Kak Farah hanya gi skolah untuk ambil result SPM & uruskan borang2 matrik.

Walaubagaimanapun, Kak Farah akan sentiasa m'doakan kejayaan Husna sbb Husna mmg sentiasa ada dlm hati Kak Farah.

Kak Farah rase thn nielah thn y paling best Kak Farah duduk kat hostel sbb ade Husna y ceriakan hari2 Kak Farah.

Kalau 'black out' nanti, suruh Yana temankan.

That's all sincerely from me, -Farah- 11 A1 SPM 2006

she wrote that letter because of a small disagreement we had. i don't remember what happened but base on the letter, i guess i was acting like a child. haha. sorry about that, KF :)

alhamdulillah; LULUS. TERUSKAN PENGAJIAN.

2011-12-20T23:49:00.000+08:00

when the result of PEPERIKSAAN SEMESTER AKHIR KURSUS PERSEDIAAN PROGRAM IJAZAH SARJANA MUDA PERGURUAN AMBILAN JUN 2010 were definitely out (i saw a few classmates posting their result. i mean, not their pointers, just whether they're LULUS or GAGAL), i slowly, cautiously, anxiously wrote down my i/c num and waited ------

Purata Nilai Gred (GPA) : *.**

Keputusan : LULUS. TERUSKAN PENGAJIAN

and then my heart -literally- skipped a beat (like how Barney's did when he saw Nora arrived for their first date. i'm watching too much How I Met Your Mother nowadays..+.+)

alhamdulillah. means my rezeki is still to pursue education in Besut, Terengganu. now, i have to say that when i found out that i'm gonna spend the next five-and-a-half years in BESUT??? it was not a good moment. but weighing two options; to be in a great place but not studying, not doing something that i love, OR to be somewhere very remote, far from the city-lights (not that i'm a city-girl with her designer jeans and handbags and spends her weekends sipping green tea frappuccino at Starbucks (i even had to google for that name of beverage at Starbucks =.=) - i just like going to the cinema) but to be studying, to be doing something of my passion? i'd rather do something that i love, doesn't matter where i was.

and after one-and-a-half years in Besut, i won't change the friends, the experience and just about everything for the world. they are awesome and we have been through a lot. camp, trips or just a simple walk to the beach of Bukit Keluang. somehow with 'holiday-goggles' on, i see them all pretty. haha=p

i actually feared that i wouldn't do well in my first exam but now that the first hump is over, i just gotta stay focus so that we'll achieve that M. Ed before thirty!;)

alright people. B. Ed (TESL) sounds so nice. i just hope the degree years are just as good as the foundation years.

in the meantime, there's always the cute Ted, the emotionally-crippled Barney, the best-couple-in-the-world Lily and Marshall and the pretty Robin to accompany my day. and working at my sister's Maya Firuzz :)

p/s: Maya Firuzz's an awesome store in which you can buy blouses, jubahs and tudungs at fabulous prices. do check out the page:)

p/p/s: & oh, i'm sorry that i haven't upload any blouses or tudungs. i'll try sometime before i'm going back to Besut. i'm only a temp after all.

disclaimer: the photos are not mine. i wish they are but they're not. i took 'em from somewhere. google told me where to find 'em.

when the moon is out

2011-12-09T20:20:00.001+08:00

then it's a lunar eclipse! lunar eclipse is, according to Wikipedia, a phenomenon that occurs when when the moon passes behind the earth so that the earth blocks the sun's ray from striking the moon. this can only occur when the sun, earth and moon are aligned exactly, or very closely so, with the earth in the middle. hence, a lunar eclipse can only occur the night of a full moon.

for Moslems, we should pray at this time (solat sunat gerhana bulan/matahari). this solat sunat is based on the hadith (from this point onward, i'm gonna speak in malay. sorry for the non-malay speakers. see if google-translate will help) :

"Sesungguhnya matahari dan bulan merupakan dua tanda daripada tanda-tanda (kebesaran) Allah tidak berlaku gerhana pada kedua-duanya kerana kematian seseorang dan tidak pula kerana kelahirannya. Maka apabila kamu melihat perkara itu maka sembahyanglah dan berdoalah sehingga kembali terang (hilang gerhana) apa dengan kamu." -(riwayat Imam Muslim)

oleh sebab esok insyaAllah gerhana bulan akan berlaku, maka di bawah ini saya salin-dan-tampal daripada laman web Jabatan Hal Ehwal Agama Terengganu. (terima kasih JHEAT ^-^)

PANDUAN SOLAT SUNAT GERHANA BULAN/MATAHARI

HUKUM SOLAT GERHANA
Sunat Muakkad ( مـؤكـدة )

CARA-CARA SOLAT

Dua (2) rakaat seperti sembahyang sunat yang lain. Cuma bezanya sebagaimana yang

masyhur ia mempunyai 2 kali ruku’ dan 2 kali qiam di dalam satu rakaat. Ianya sunat

ditunaikan secara berjemaah di Masjid/Surau dan boleh juga secara bersendirian.

CARA-CARA PELAKSANAANNYA
Solat gerhana matahari dan bulan ini boleh dilakukan dengan 3 cara :
Bagi gerhana matahari, bacaan dalam solat dibaca dengan diperlahankan suara ; adapun bagi
gerhana bulan bacaan hendaklah dibaca dengan diangkat suara seperti mana-mana solat
malam.

Cara Pertama : Cara yang paling ringkas. Iaitu hendaklah ditunaikan dengan dua
rakaat sepertimana solat sunat zuhur atau mana-mana solat sunat.

Cara Kedua : Disebut dengan “ الكمال أدنى ” iaitu hendaklah ditunaikan dengan

dua rakaat, dengan dua kali qiam dan dua ruku’ pada tiap-tiap satu

rakaat, disertai dengan bacaan al-Fatihah dan surah dalam tiap-tiap

qiam itu.

Bagi kita di Malaysia ini, cara yang kedua inilah yang paling mudah dilaksanakan. Selepas
takbir, dibaca doa iftitah dan al-Fatihah. Selepas selesai al-Fatihah, dibaca surah (mana-mana
surah yang mampu). Kemudian ruku’ dan bangkit semula (qiam kedua). Di dalam qiam
kedua ini dibaca al-Fatihah dan juga surah. Kemudian ruku’ semula (dipanggil ruku’ kedua).
Apabila bangkit I’tidal, terus sujud sebanyak dua kali. Apabila selesai sahaja dari sujud
kedua dan bangkit barulah selesai rakaat yang pertama. Begitulah caranya bagi rakaat yang
kedua.

Cara Ketiga : Cara yang paling sempurna. Caranya adalah seperti juga yang kedua
akan tetapi dalam rakaat yang pertama dan qiam yang pertama
hendaklah dibaca surah al-Baqarah ataupun mana-mana surah yang
sama panjang dengannya. Di dalam rakaat yang pertama juga tetapi
qiam yang kedua dibaca surah ali-Imran. Dalam rakaat yang kedua
qiam yang pertama hendaklah dibaca surah al-Nisa’, dan dalam qiam
yang kedua pada rakaat kedua dibaca surah al-Maaidah.
Kemudian hendaklah bertasbih dalam ruku’ yang pertama dengan
kadar bacaan 100 ayat, dalam ruku’ yang kedua 80 ayat, ruku’ ketiga
70 ayat dan ruku’ yang keempat 50 ayat.

Waktunya
Waktu bagi solat gerhana matahari dan bulan ialah bermula dari ketika berlakunya gerhana
sehinggalah selesai.

Tempat Solat
Solat gerhana sunat dilakukan di masjid atau surau atau mana-mana tempat yang biasa
dilakukan solat berjemaah.

ATURAN SOLAT GERHANA
1. Disunatkan mandi sebelum solat.
2. Bilal Menyeru :
" الص ـل ة ج امـ ع ة "
3. Berdiri lurus mengadap kiblat.
4. Berniat mengerjakan solat gerhana.

(1) Lafaz niat untuk gerhana bulan
ا ص ل&ى س ن ة خ س و ف ا لق م ر ر ك ـع ت ي ن مـأ م وم ـا ل ل ه
ت ع ـال ى
“ Sahaja aku solat sunat gerhana bulan dua rakaat makmum kerana Allah
Ta’ala”.

(2) Lafaz niat untuk gerhana matahari
ا ص ل&ى س ن ة ك س و ف الش م س ر ك ـع ت ي ن
مـأ م وم ـا ل ل ه ت ع ـال ى
“ Sahaja aku solat sunat gerhana matahari dua rakaat makmum kerana Allah
Ta’ala”.

5. Takbiratul Ihram. Doa Iftitah, Bacaan Al-Fatihah dan Surah.
6. Ruku’ serta tasbihnya dan qiam semula.
7. Baca al-Fatihah dan Surah.
8. Ruku’, I’tidal kemudian sujud 2 kali (seperti biasa).
9. Kemudian qiam semula untuk mengerjakan rakaat kedua.
10. Baca al-Fatihah dan Surah.
11. Ruku’ berserta tasbihnya dan qiam semula.
12. Baca al-Fatihah lagi dan Surah.
13. Kemudian ruku’ I’tidal dan sujud 2 kali, baca tasyahhud akhir dan salam.
14. Selepas itu dibacakan khutbah khas sempena gerhana. Dua kali khutbah (seperti
khutbah Hari Raya).

INGATAN :
1. Makmum yang tertinggal ruku’ yang pertama samada dalam rakaat pertama atau
rakaat kedua, adalah dikira tidak mendapat rakaat itu dan dia hendaklah
menyempurnakan rakaat yang luput itu selepas Imam memberi salam.
2. Maklumat lanjut sila ruju’ kitab Sabilal Muhtadin, karangan Sheikh Mohd Arshad bin
Abdullah Al-Banjari, (Juz. 2 Hal. 58-60).
3. Sembahyang sunat gerhana matahari, segala bacaannya dilakukan dengan suara
perlahan ( سر) , manakala bagi sembahyang sunat gerhana bulan, segala bacaannya
dilakukan dengan suara yang nyaring ( جـهر)

notasaya: kebetulan hari ni baca An-Najm (bintang). esok baca Al-Qamar (bulan) insyaAllah=)

Change

2011-11-25T23:15:00.001+08:00

i used to think politics is cool. of course, at the time, my idea of 'politics' was a bunch of men in suits who works on important things like foreign affairs and gets to be inside the parliament building and gets to appear in front of the tv and etc. etc. so i liked it. i wanna be a politician someday. maybe after a few years as an active underling for a certain political party, i'll become a politician.

as i grow older, i learned that politics is a dirty scene and politicians, at a lot of time, cannot help themselves but to succumb to the norm of the politics world. bribery, corruption, and many other bad things of which i'm not sure the correct terms for. if you ever spend any amount of time observing our local political scene, you'll notice it.

and then i don't like politics anymore. i think i don't wanna become an apprentice anymore.

but i seem to be the only one in the family to have a knack for speaking in public. people seem to expect it too (that i can speak in front of people - and good at it. which i doubt until now.)

and then i come across this Japanese series.

this 10-episode series is about Asakura Keita, the disavowed son of a minister. one day, without warning, Keita's father and brother were involved in a plane crash which means Fukuoka, Keita's father area, needed a new representative. that's where Keita stepped in. he was disavowed, but he was a son of a politician after all. speaking publicly and convincingly was in his blood.

then, Keita won the election in Fukuoka. after some very strong twist, somehow Keita was suddenly running for prime minister because he was running for Seiyu party leader (like in Malaysia, if one is the UMNO party leader, one is Malaysia's prime minister. capiche?) and sure enough, he won the election and became Japan's youngest prime minister in history.

and Keita did a splendid job! (say, splendid! - The Final Continent, Jumpa Lhahiri) he looked into every matter very closely before signing into or anything. he would go to the tornado-affected place himself. he would go taste the ashes-covered cabbages to convince people that the cabbages are safe to be eaten. he'd make a wonderful prime minister.

pity that the old geezer Kanbayashi didn't think the same. sometime, you have to agree with Barney. (new is always better. -Barney, How I Met Your Mother)

i dream of the day Malaysia will have a politician like that. better yet, a PRIME MINISTER like that. yes, ideals are ideals because they are hard to be achieved but it's not impossible.

dreams are not impossible.

i don't want to teach the children that there are necessary evil in this world. -Asakura Keita, Change

on another note, when will a local production make a movie about Malaysia's prime minister? (i mean, to touch on our royal Agong, like how they always does on Queen Elizabeth II, is a bit much and perhaps quite impossible) i mean, a movie on our government should be oh-semm.

wonder who should play DS Najib? Aaron Aziz too good looking wouldn't he be? haha=D

what happens after final exam?

2011-11-17T03:01:00.001+08:00

one fine day, while cracking my head (i'm not sure about everybody else because they seemed just fine >.<) revising Language Description for the final, Sir Zaki suddenly said:

"What are your plans after finals?"

when he found out that we didn't had any, he urged us to spend one last fun day outing together.

so when the final exam for PPISMP (Program Persediaan Ijazah Sarjana Muda Perguruan) finally ended on the 15th of November 2011, we all went for bowling at KB Mall in Kota Bharu (yes, it's not that grand but whom the time spent with that's count^^).

izzatiisa; before throwing

izzatiisa; after throwing

pretty girls (no, they are not random pretty girls. i know them ==')

afterwards we went to Restoran Tarbush to have our dinner. Sir Zaki's treat (but only the drinks. haha.) thank you Sir.

1st shot: Muni at the front

2nd shot: Muni behind because she said it'll make her look smaller in the picture

3rd shot: flashy

4th shot: Azrul cam-whoring

theme: tekun

that guy is Saddly Saljie, the infamous blogger:p (he insisted that i link this post to his blog ==')

our briyani arab. dee-licious, i tell you.

mutton

or chicken. both were superb =)

from left: athirah, hani (profile), fadzleen, syakirah

guess which one is our Sir Zaki?

in the back: halberth

2nd line: muni, el

front: irah (tak aci if only sad's blog that is linked:p)

this is the place. near the Billion shopping mall in Kota Bharu. delicious Arabian food guaranteed=)

anyway. we all had a nice time. may this ukhwah between us stays eternally. i <3 you guys (future, for now) PISMP TESL intake Jan 2012 (insyaAllah!)

macro's 1st test

2011-11-04T22:58:00.000+08:00

enjoy the photos. i know i enjoy snapping 'em (and editing them too! >.<)

This morning: Ask Your Ustaz =)

2011-11-04T09:14:00.003+08:00

i'm homeee...hehe. Hari Raya Aidiladha is coming up so we get a few days leave even though final is next week.

for those of you who have no idea what is Hari Raya Aidiladha, let me give you a quick summary: Aidiladha is a time celebrated to commemorate Prophet Ibrahim's an Prophet Ismail's sacrifice. thousands of years ago, a wahyu came to Prophet Ibrahim, asking him to slaughter his own son; Prophet Ismail as a sign of faith. both Prophet Ibrahim and Prophet Ismail concurred. but just before Prophet Ibrahim slaughtered Prophet Ismail, Allah replaced Prophet Ismail with a big, fat qibas (sheep) to reward both of them and for them to celebrate the day as a Hari Raya. and so, since that day, 10th of Zulhijjah is a Hari Raya (Eid ul-Adha) and muslims across the world can perform the qurban (the sacrifice of livestock animal) during the day from 10th to 13th Zulhijjah.

as you may have guessed, today's topic on TV9's Tanyalah Ustaz was about sacrifice. but what really captured my attention was about aqiqah. aqiqah is an ibadah perform after the birth of a child to let everyone know about the presence of the newborn. if the newborn is a boy, then two goat should be used for the kenduri and if it's a girl, then only one goat should do.

during aqiqah, the hair of the baby are being cut (in Malaysia, the men are usually the ones who do the hair-cutting while saying zikir which is praises for The Almighty) and then weighed. if say, the hair weighs 10g, then the current price of gold for 10g in the market should be the amount of money the parents of the baby that they give to the unfortunates.

this pic is not mine. thanks http://www.rempah.com/blog/majlis-aqiqah.htm

*can't wait to see an aqiqah in the family* :)

tulis kecik-kecik takut abang saya nampak. nanti dia marah pulak. hihi.

Panduan lengkap awal Zulhijjah (Guidelines in early Zulhijjah)

2011-11-02T00:32:00.000+08:00

not sure what made me think that re-posting this amazing article of guidelines in the month of Zulhijjah here will get more people to read it, but it's my way to remind myself while reminding others. hopefully we will all gain something from it;) (credit: Ikatan Muslimin Malaysia)

Antara kurniaan terbesar Allah SWT pada sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah ialah sepertimana yang disabdakan oleh Rasulullah SAW:

“Tiada hari-hari di mana amal soleh di dalamnya lebih dicintai oleh Allah SWT selain sepuluh hari ini (sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah)”. Para sahabat bertanya, “Wahai Rasulullah! Adakah jihad juga tidak dapat menandingi pahala amalan pada sepuluh hari tersebut?” Rasulullah SAW menjawab, “Tidak, kecuali seorang lelaki yang keluar dengan diri dan hartanya lalu tidak membawa pulang sedikit pun daripada kedua-duanya.”

Sekarang kita sedang berada di dalam hari-hari yang penuh berkat, telah datang kepada kita hari-hari yang muncul bersamanya kurniaan yang mulia dari Tuhan yang mulia, yang memupuk rasa rindu dan cinta dalam jiwa umat Islam, lalu bergetarlah hati mereka dan membuak-buaklah perasaan mereka, lalu perasaan tersebut memimpin mereka ke arah ketaatan dan ibadah kepada tuhan mereka.

Waktu yang paling dicintai oleh Allah

Hari-hari ini merupakan masa yang paling dicintai oleh Allah SWT, lalu amal soleh di dalamnya merupakan amalan yang paling dicintai oleh Allah SWT kerana ia berada di dalam masa yang terbaik yang disumpah oleh Allah SWT dengannya di dalam Al-Quran:

“Demi waktu fajar. Demi malam-malam yang sepuluh.”

Kemuliaan tersebut juga disebabkan kerana terdapatnya hari yang terbaik di dalamnya iaitu Hari Arafah yang juga kerana perhimpunan tahunan umat Islam seluruh dunia pada musim haji. Maka, hari-hari tersebut merupakan hari terkumpulnya ibadah-ibadah utama. Ibnu Hajar pernah berkata, “Sebab istimewanya sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah ialah kerana terkumpulnya ibadah-ibadah utama di dalamnya iaitu solat, puasa, sedekah, haji dan sebagainya yang tidak berlaku pada waktu lain.”

Kemuliaan ini juga kerana hari-hari tersebut merupakan hari-hari untuk memperbaharui kehidupan di dalam ketaatan kepada Allah, hari-hari mendapat kurniaan rahmat Allah, hari-hari untuk berlumba-lumba melakukan kebaikan demi mendapat keampunan Allah, hari-hari musim perniagaan yang menguntungkan, hari-hari yang mengumpulkan di antara kemuliaan tempat dan masa dan mengumpulkan di antara ibadah hati, badan, ibadah perseorangan dan beramai-ramai.

Ia juga kerana hari-hari ini merupakan hari-hari rahmat, keampunan dan pembebasan dari neraka. Hari-hari di mana malaikat di bumi menyerupai malaikat di langit, lalu manusia yang suci akan bertanding dengan malaikat yang baik. Allah SWT berbangga dengan hamba-hambanya di hadapan para malaikat seperti mana sabda Rasulullah SAW, “Tiada hari yang lebih banyak Allah membebaskan hambanya daripada api neraka dari Hari Arafah, sesungguhnya Allah menghampiri hamba-hambanya dan berbangga dengan mereka di hadapan para malaikat lalu berkata: Apakah yang mereka inginkan?”

Diriwayatkan daripada Anas Bin Malik RA, “Dikatakan tentang sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah bahawa seharinya sama seperti seribu hari, Hari Arafah menyamai 10,000 hari (pada kelebihannya).”

Diriwayatkan juga daripada Al-Auza’ie, “Aku mendengar bahawa amalan dalam sepuluh hari tersebut umpama berperang di jalan Allah dalam keadaan berpuasa di siang harinya, berjaga di malam harinya melainkan orang yang mati syahid (maka pahalanya tidak boleh ditandingi).”

Diriwayatkan juga daripada Kaab, “Allah memuliakan sesetengah masa ke atas yang lain. Lalu masa yang paling dicintai Allah ialah bulan-bulan haram (Rejab, Zulqaedah, Zulhijjah dan Muharram). Bulan yang paling mulia diantara bulan-bulan haram ialah bulan Zulhijjah. Hari-hari yang paling mulia di sisi Allah di dalam bulan Zulhijjah ialah sepuluh hari pertamanya.”

Amalan-amalan yang paling dicintai oleh Allah

Saudara-saudariku yang dikasihi sekalian,

Suka saya untuk menceritakan pada kalian tentang keazaman para ‘arifin, kesungguhan para nasikin, kerinduan para pencinta dan keasyikan orang-orang yang taat. Nabi SAW dan para sahabat yang mulia mengkhususkan hari-hari ini dengan perdampingan yang lebih erat dengan Allah SWT, juga memperbanyakkan ketaatan serta zikir kepada-Nya.

Said Bin Jubair apabila tibanya sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah, dia bersungguh-sungguh dalam beribadah sehingga dia hampir tidak mampu melakukannya. Maka, adakah anda tergolong di kalangan mereka yang mendapat keistimewaan hari-hari ini? Di sini saya senaraikan beberapa langkah-langkah praktikal dari sudut tarbawi yang boleh anda lakukan:

1. Adakah anda telah berniat untuk melakukan haji dan umrah di tempat tinggal anda? Jika anda tidak mampu melakukan haji, maka Rasulullah SAW telah membuka pintu yang menyamai haji dan umrah. Sabda Baginda SAW, “Barangsiapa yang solat subuh berjemaah kemudian dia duduk mengingati Allah SWT sehingga terbitnya matahari, kemudian dia solat dua rakaat, maka baginya seumpama pahala haji dan umrah yang sempurna, yang sempurna, yang sempurna.”

Amalan: Iktikaf di masjid selepas subuh berzikir dan membaca Al-Quran

2. Adakah anda telah berniat untuk berpuasa pada sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah ini?

a. Imam Nawawi pernah ditanya tentang puasa sembilan hari pertama Zulhijjah. Maka dia menjawab, “Ia sangat digalakkan.”

b. Imam Ahmad meriwayatkan, “Rasulullah SAW berpuasa pada sembilan hari pertama Zulhijjah.”

c. Sayyidina Umar Al-Khattab berkata, “Tiada halangan untuk menggantikan puasa Ramadhan pada sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah.”

d. Hasan Basri berkata, “Berpuasa sehari di dalam sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah menyamai puasa dua bulan.”

e. Imam Muhammad Bin Sirin, Mujahid dan Atho’ berpuasa pada sembilan hari pertama Zulhijjah.

Amalan: Puasa sembilan hari pertama Zulhijjah.

3. Adakah anda telah berniat untuk iktikaf pada sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah ini? Diriwayatkan daripada Al-Hafiz Ibnu Asakir bahawa dia beriktikaf pada bulan Ramadhan dan sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah.

Amalan: Iktikaf sejam sehari atau sehari atau seumpamanya.

4. Adakah anda telah berniat untuk melakukan kebaikan pada sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah ini?. Rasulullah SAW bersabda, “Amalan-amalan baik memelihara diri daripada pengakhiran yang buruk, sedekah secara sembunyi mampu memadamkan kemarahan Tuhan, silaturrahim mampu memanjangkan umur.”

Amalan: Menunaikan hajat manusia setiap hari.

5. Adakah anda telah berniat untuk bertakbir, bertahmid dan bertahlil pada sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah ini?

a. Rasulullah SAW bersabda, “Tiada hari-hari yang lebih agung di sisi Allah dan lebih dicintainya daripada sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah, maka perbanyakkanlah tahlil (ucapan la ilaha illallah), takbir (ucapan Allahu Akbar) dan tahmid (ucapan alhamdulillah) di dalamnya.

b. Imam Mujahid berkata, Abu Hurairah dan Ibnu Umar RA keluar ke pasar pada sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah lalu bertakbir, lalu orang-orang di sekeliling mereka juga bertakbir bersama mereka. Mereka tidak datang ke pasar kecuali dengan tujuan tersebut.

Amalan: Bertakbir setiap kali selepas solat dan pada waktu-waktu kosong.

6. Adakah anda telah berniat untuk sentiasa berzikir pada sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah ini? Allah telah menyarankan umat Islam di dalam Al-Quran supaya memperbanyakkan zikir pada sepuluh hari ini. “Dan mereka menyebut nama Allah pada hari-hari yang diketahui.” (Al-Haj: 28) Ibnu Abbas mengatakan, “Sesungguhnya hari-hari yang diketahui itu ialah sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah.”

Amalan: Memelihara zikir pagi dan petang, zikir pada waktu-waktu kosong dan zikir mutlak sekurang-kurangnya 3000 kali setiap hari.

7. Adakah anda telah berniat untuk mempelbagaikan ibadat pada sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah ini?

a. Salafussoleh RA mempelbagaikan ibadat pada sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah.

b. Supaya kita dapat memenuhi sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah dengan bermacam jenis ibadat, di bawah saya senaraikan beberapa amalan yang perlu kita lakukan pada sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah ini sebagai tambahan bagi amalan-amalan yang telah disebutkan tadi. Mudah-mudahan Allah berbangga dengan kita di hadapan para malaikatnya:

ؠ Segera bertaubat dengan sebenar-benarnya serta mengulangi taubat siang dan malam.

ؠ Perbaharui niat dalam setiap kata-kata dan perbuatan dan menghadirkan lebih daripada satu niat dalam satu amalan. Jadikannya rahsia antara anda dan Tuhanmu.

ؠ Manfaatkan masa-masa yang berharga dengan ketaatan (waktu sebelum dan selepas Subuh dan waktu Maghrib).

ؠ Qiamullail secara bersendirian setiap hari di rumah sekurang-kurangnya dua rakaat sebelum tidur atau beberapa jam sebelum Subuh.

ؠ Bersedekah empat kali sepanjang sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah, menyembelih korban bagi yang mampu dan jangan lupa hak orang fakir miskin.

ؠ Berusaha mengkhatamkan Al-Quran sepanjang sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah. Jika tidak, maka sejuzuk setiap hari.

ؠ Melazimi solat dhuha, sunat rawatib, witir dan sebagainya.

ؠ Makan sahur atau berbuka bersama keluarga atau ahli rumah setiap hari atau sekurang-kurangnya tiga hari.

ؠ Mendoakan saudara-saudara yang telah tiada serta yang berjihad di Palestin dan di mana sahaja.

ؠ Menziarahi guru atau syeikh untuk mengambil manfaat bersama dengannya serta mengutip mutiara ilmu darinya.

ؠ Melaksanakan tugas sebagai daie dan haraki dan segala tugas-tugas yang diberikan dengan sebaik-baiknya.

ؠ Mulakan harimu dengan sedekah, moga-moga anda mendapat doa dua malaikat.

Akhirnya, jadikanlah sepuluh hari pertama Zulhijjah ini sebagai peluang untuk mentarbiyah jiwa dan ruh di dalam menghadapi kepayahan hidup, ujian dan cabaran. Jadikannya juga sebagai peluang untuk sentiasa berhubung dengan Allah SWT, mentarbiah diri untuk menghidupkan sunnah-sunnah Rasul SAW dan jadikan ia sebagai medan untuk berlumba-lumba di dalam mempelbagaikan ibadat. Jadikanlah sepuluh hari ini sebagai satu kursus tarbawi untuk mengubah, mendidik, membaiki, meluruskan serta merawat penyakit-penyakit hati. Jadikan ia sebagai peluang keemasan untuk menggapai cinta ilahi iaitu ketika mana anda melakukan amalan yang paling dicintai pada waktu yang paling dicintai. Jadikanlah syiarmu sepanjang sepuluh hari ini:

“Dan aku bersegera menuju-Mu wahai Tuhanku supaya Engkau redha.” (Toha: 84)

Oleh: Abdullah Hussen,
Mahasiswa Sarjana Kuliah Dar Ulum,
Universiti Kaherah

Sumber: Laman Web ISMA Mesir

selamat berjuang wira-wira

2011-10-28T23:55:00.002+08:00

(saya mungkin tak tengoklah sebab pengalaman lalu menonton satu-satu perlawanan sukan yang saya menyokong salah satu pasukan, selalunya yang saya sokong itu tak bernasib baik. ridiculous, i know.)

saya selalu macam ini. bila pasukan tu nampak cemerlang gemilang terbilang barulah saya nampak sibuk-sibuk menyokong dan sebagainya. tapi bila pasukan tu suram-suram, gelap gelita aja, (contoh: Arsenal), senyap saya seperti senyapnya mereka. haha. hypocrite, i know.

but hey, i try to remain faithful to Arsenal. i mean, they're still my favourite EPL team. i just don't say much about them now because, well, because there isn't much to talk about. i know they'll be facing Chelsea tomorrow (good luck, Gunners!) but i don't dare to hope for much. is that a crime?

anyway, good luck Terengganu! Semarak Darul Iman, Sokongan Sepanjang Zaman...~

pic from http://isugegar.blogspot.com/2011/05/pasukan-bola-sepak-terengganu-liga.html

dan saya pun harus pergi berjuang untuk diri sendiri. final exam is approaching. good luck for us all:)

In Time

2011-10-27T19:35:00.002+08:00

basically it's about what if our life, the time span we have left in this world, is the currency?

ya know, even with money as currency (or gold, or silver, or diamond; your call) we have crime rates which are impossible to tackle. i really hope what happens in this movie, stays in the movie.

other than that, JT is still a fine specimen of a man.

(image from: http://www.aforadio.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/09/InTime-2-sheet.jpg)

chim chum away! :D

2011-10-21T08:04:00.000+08:00

five of us a.k.a. the 'Hang Kenaris' (me, jie, nadz, ijat & dayah) went to KB last Wednesday. dayah wanna find a new of headphone & the rest of basically just dying to taste the food at the Food Village, the highly-praised chim-chum.

but before Food Village, we stopped by KB Mall for the headphones. i was starving so me and ijat took a 'light' late lunch at Pizza Hut.

ijat's hungry expression

char-grilled cheese baked rice

meatball bolognaise

chim-chum is like the infamous yong tau foo (variety of processed food boiled in hot water then dipped in sweet or spicy sauce) but with a lot more variety and honestly, in Food Village you can eat until you drop! (like the expression 'shop till you drop' but not as good =.=) it's a all-you-can eat buffet. ah, nice!

serious eating face

seafood frenzies!

from left: thirah & hani also enjoyed themselves

so did aen (with her hidden boyfriend. haha!)

chim-chumer=)

kenyang faces

they were too, kenyang!

and...so were they.

happy-kenyang face

the 'rojak betik'

gasp! what eating habit. tsk, tsk.

this place had been visited by JJCM

FOOD VILLAGE. Business hours: 5.00pm - 12.00midnight

happily-full

so there. chim chum was nice. i think i'd wanna go again. hehe.

ps: wish me luck for my debate. but then again, i don't wanna be in the game for too long so that i can go around KL. hehe=p

our Picnic in the Orange Garden~

2011-10-18T22:36:00.002+08:00

we had a barbecue for our small feast on the last day of gerko softball. honestly, sad made me agree to write this post & upload the pics so enjoy peeps.

the delicious chicken pieces & sausages. credit for sad & vehn.

sya-ming-ah (the camera-starer) & luqman (the non-starer)

vehnoo, the blue-shirted fanner

the almost everyone

from left: jie, dayah, ijat, nadz & sad

still almost everyone

now we're talking. this is our gerko president & vice president; hidayah salleh & saddly ismail

the president, the vice & the secretary; syakirah basri

the president, the vice, the secretary & the treasurer; vehnoo subramaniam

in this pic, saddly was actually trying to show off his newly-acquired biceps but uh, i guess najiah kind of blocked them. haha!

still not very clear about the biceps, sad. sorry about it. everyone else, good job trying to look like you guys were focusing on the people who were practising kicking football on the field. great acting!

the guy: taufiq rashid.

i guess that's it. kinda nice posting these pics on the blog. now i can delete 'em from ma ace. tata!;)

p/s: wish me luck about my up-and-coming debate. i don't expect (or in any way, want) to win but to not suck so bad would be nice. amin.....

Nara Shikamaru

2011-10-06T23:49:00.001+08:00

it has been a full week (innovation, coursework, portfolio, etc.) so whenever there's a free time i'll open blogger.com but it's just too troublesome (heh :p) to write anything because i have some other stuff i'd be better off writing.

but still, i had to make time to watch a few of Naruto (only at episode 69 now ==') because it keeps me distracted. why do i need distraction - please don't ask. i don't have an answer for that. (i know, i know. there's no need to lecture me. i won't bother paying attention. it's almost study week now)

one character caught my attention. (oke, bear in mind that i'm pretty new at being a Naruto fan XD)

Nara Shikamaru ( 奈良シカマル )

from what i can gather (thank you http://naruto.wikia.com/wiki/Shikamaru_Nara ), Shikamaru was a lazy genin (it's like, the 1st level for any ninja who just left the academy) but has 'prodigious intelligence' which makes him a worthy opponent to pay attention to (although the question if he'll pay you any attention is still questionable).

from 9 rookie genins who took the chunin exam the first time (Naruto, Sasuke, Sakura, Shikamaru, Ino, Choji, Kiba, Hinata & Shino), only Shikamaru became chunin after that. not even;

Uzumaki Naruto (has a 9-tailed fox demon inside his body, immense stamina)

Uchiha Sasuke (has sharingan, Uchiha clan's kekkei genkai, special trait which enable him to see the opponent's future movements & copy them)

Aburame Shino (has special power over insects, Aburame clan's kekkei genkai)

Shikamaru's favourite saying is "too troublesome" (mendokusē) because his favourite pastimes are watching clouds and playing Japanese chess game (shogi, like old people). anything else considered "too troublesome". even picking up the pencil to answer the test when he was still in the academy. (haha!)

Shikamaru is an important supporting character in the Naruto series. here's some background:

father: Nara Shikaku
mother: Nara Yoshino
team 10: Sarutobi Asuma (jonin leader), Akimichi Choji, Yamanaka Ino
birthday: 22 September
clan: Nara
jutsu:


Formation Ino–Shika–Chō Portable Water Field ^{(Anime only)} Shadow Endgame Technique Shadow Imitation Shuriken Technique Shadow Imitation Technique Shadow Sewing Technique Shadow–Neck Binding Technique

ninja rank: chunin
affiliation: Konohagakure

hope this post has been fun for you as it has for me =)

p.s: sorry about this. i'm having some kind of anime mental-breakdown or sth. can't be bothered to find out. too troublesome.

ping!

2011-09-28T21:06:00.001+08:00

i just changed my blog title a few weeks ago. & i thought the name ping! sounds nice. but i had no idea that the name was already a name of an application that works like WhatsApp Messenger - just a bit different.

but for now i can't benefit much from my WhatsApp Messenger because not everybody's equipped with iPhone or Android phone or a BB or Nokia smartphone. (& to be honest, i don't really know what is the requirement needed to have a WM application on your phone ==')

oke. the similarity between PingMe and WhatsApp is that they allow you to send sms & mms for free. however, PingMe also allows you to update your status (kind of like how you do on Facebook) and it's kind of like a tracking device. when you chat with your friend you can look up their location. i'm not sure how but from the vid, it looks like there's a layout of the location (meaning, a map) and your friend's current position will be marked by his/her name.

i don't know which one i'd prefer more. maybe PingMe, because it doesn't have an expiration date? (you have to pay for WhatsApp after one year. at least, that's what i've heard)

p/s. what i really wanna say is; PingMe, please don't sue me. i use ping! & you use PingMe. we're totally different right?

i do cherish you! i do!

2011-09-26T21:34:00.001+08:00

i've been telling sad that i had (or have?) a bff from school, one which i hardly contact now. and i miss her a lot. because whenever something goes wrong (especially if i feel unappreciated at times - by whom i can't say), i can pick up the phone, give her a call and 'get a dose of her' (it's like we are each other's medicine - to be taken regularly).

but a very slight argument that we had on fb kind of drove us apart. i tried, after that, to keep contacting her but then she was busy with her application to pursue degree and i thought i'd give her sometime to - you know, handle that fuss. i know with all the ruckus about forms to fill, signatures to ask, files to be completed, marks to be written down, papers to be copied, it can overwhelm a person. in a bad way. i completely understand that.

but now it's been a while since the ruckus-ness of the enrollment into universities for degree-pursuers calmed down. and i still don't hear anything from her. i see her on fb all the time but i can't muster up the courage (or the not-lazy-ness) to click on her dp and say "hi! what've you been up to? it's been a while hasn't it?"

i'd admit it that she was always the one to call me first or text me first or say hi to me first or just about anything to keep the friendship alive. and sad said, maybe she's tired now to be the one who wants this relationship to stay strong. i mean, any relationship would need both parties to play their part, right? at least, that's what i've heard.

and i sucked at relationships. (i used to think i only sucked at the lovey-dovey relationship between a guy and a gal, but maybe i've broaden the range =,=). but i don't wanna lose her. she's one of the best thing that's ever happen to me. (okay, it sounds veryyyyy cheesy but it's true T_________T)

Saidina Ali said:

orang yang paling jauh bermusafir ialah mereka yang sedang mencari seorang sahabat yang di sukainya

that is true. besut-kl is not a 24-hour journey but i feel like we are light years apart.

i'll contact her. soon. pray for me that she still wants to be my bff. or at least, friend.

peringatan....-.-

2011-09-24T18:57:00.002+08:00

‎- Terbitnya matahari dari Barat ke Timur
- Pintu pengampunan akan ditutup
- Dab'bat al-Ard akan keluar dari tanah dan akan menandai muslim yang sebenar-benarnya
- Kabut selama 40 Hari akan mematikan semua orang beriman sejati sebab mereka tidak perlu mengalami tanda kiamat lainnya
- Sebuah kebakaran besar akan menyebabkan kerosakan
... - Pemusnahan Kaabah
- Tulisan dalam Al-Quran akan lenyap
- Sangkakala akan ditiup pertama kalinya. Binatang dan orang kafir yang tersisa akan mati. Semua gunung dan bangunan akan runtuh
- Tiupan sangkakala yang kedua kalinya akan membangkitkan semua ciptaan Allah dan bertemu di dataran Arafah menuju saat penghakiman mereka dan matahari akan mendekatkan dirinya ke bumi

Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. telah bersabda :
"Barang siapa yang mengingatkan ini kepada orang lain, akan Ku buatkan tempat di syurga baginya pada hari penghakiman kelak".

one of the best things about college..?

2011-09-20T20:18:00.000+08:00

is to pull an all-nighter? well, i pulled an all-nighter. a second one for this week alone and i have never pulled an all-nighter before this week in my entire life.

and may i say, now i know how much i appreciate my sleep time.

but anyhoo, thanks caffeine. really saved my... everything.

so this morning i was back to emo-mode (meaning: angry & moody. just the light of the party really.) if i don't get enough rest, that'll happen. i think it does that to everybody, amirite people? i just, show it more obviously on my face. huuuu....T_________T

Alhamdulillah though, praise for Allah because i managed to submit both PI's and PP's KKP today. there are three headaches left. come sunday it'll be LDEV, tuesday'll be SS and LS on the 2nd of October.

Wish me the best of luck. i find blogging as one of the ways for me to keep myself sane.

Therefore be patient; surely the promise of Allah is true; and ask protection for your fault and sing the praise of your Lord in the evening and in the morning.

- Q40 : 55

sincerely rest-deprived,

me (x_____x).

i love my printer

2011-09-19T15:56:00.001+08:00

and no, i don't have some kind of a weird fetish towards machine. please don't misunderstand me=='

i'm suppose to send my Kerja Kursus Pendek for agama today. but after tens of pages of me & a few of my friends', Pixma decided that today is the right day to make me miss my due date. and i have another KKP due tomorrow and that KKP is not date-negotiable. like this one! hah! ottoke...>.<

i guess i'll try it one more time. my hand already looks like i just repaired a rantai basikal. Pixma darling, i'm sorry that the boiling water from the rice cooker hits you sorely on your body. i will make it up to you later. okay? i promise.

okay. here i go. Allah help me.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

malu lahh~

2011-09-18T20:45:00.001+08:00

sempena Minggu Penghayatan & Kefahaman Islam (MPKI) tahun ini, ada pertandingan nasyid merentas semester (alamak, macam peliklah bunyinya. maksudnya semester ini lawan semester itu. yaa...faham tak? takpelah =,=). baru-baru ini sudah dianjurkan nasyid muslimah (di mana kaum muslimin tidak dibenarkan hadir kerana suara perempuan itu aurat. yeah!) dan pada malam ini nasyid muslimin akan mengambil tempat di Dewan al-Khindi. yg ni kaum Hawa macam diriku boleh la pegi tengok kalau nak.

tapi saya amat mengantuk sekarang. semalam saya tidak tidur daripada pukul 2.30am. kerana menyiapkan assignment LDES. penat masih terasa & mengantuk masih bergayutan di kelopak mata (macam syaitan pulak masa kita nak bangun Subuh tu kan? seram2 >.<)

+, masa nasyid ladies tempoh hari, saya dengan kejamnya (ye, ye, saya minta maaf saya tak pergi support kalian T________T) tidak turun ke dewan. apakahh maknanya jika saya turun pula utk support team gents?

seperti yg saya kata kepada SenaMaths;

Tak tengok nasyid muslimah tak apa. Bukan nak cari calon isteri.

sekian. berbunyi merenyam tetapi itulah hakikatnya. XD

Sleepless in Seattle

2011-09-18T06:39:00.001+08:00

i've never seen the movie and so please stop reading here if you've arrived here because you wanted to read a review of the movie. although, now my life sounds like the movie. meaning: sleepless.

don't get me wrong. i'm not insomniac or something. i'm just overwhelmed with work that i am not burning a midnight oil - more like burning the money of the citizens of Malaysia to keep my room lighted, my computer and printer on & the water heater to boil the water for my not-sleeping drug a.k.a. coffee. thank you Malaysians! (bowing slightly)

it's 6.18am and i haven't slept all night and i have never done this before. i mean, the most late i have ever went to bed at was 5.30am and i still managed to get one hour (before i have to get up for Subuh & class). now i just plan to print my work, izzatiisa's work and get to the bathroom. there's a rumour our Director could be coming to the morning assembly so i'm pretty much dead if i don't go to shower now. later, ;)

cheese cake ala secret recipe

2011-08-29T11:54:00.000+08:00

oke. that title might be correct if i/you/we use the correct ingredients all the way but i couldn't find Philadelphia cheese anywhere at TMC Mesra Mall so... but it didn't taste that bad. just a bit salty. i think mozarella does that. haha.

anyhoo, here's the recipe (thanks mywira:) ;
1. 2 bars of Philadelphia cheese
2. 1 tin of concentrated milk (F&N, susu cap junjung, whichever you'd prefer)
3. cookies (preferably biskut meri, any other i'd afraid the taste would be different. haha - mcm pro je haku)
4. 1/3 butter
5. agar-agar powder (make sure you get the colourless one - or else you'll end up with green cake like i did T______________T)
6. lemon juice (i just used lime juice. haha! make do with what you have - cooking is all about improvising, as my sister said it)
7. Oreo cookies (for garnishing & enhancing purpose)

and here's how you do it;
1. crush the biskut meri. the degree of crush-ness is really up to you. how much? that is up to the size of the loyang you're using.
2. heat 1/3 butter on the stove and after the butter's all melted, put the crushed biskut meri together with the melted butter.
3. the mixed butter and biskut meri will serve as the base of this cheese cake so you can just directly transfer them into the loyang.
4. now for the top layer. take the 2 bars f Philadelphia cheese and 1 tin of concentrated milk and heat both on the stove. wait until they become one mixture.
5. meanwhile, add 2 spoons of agar-agar powder into 1/4 cup of hot water. afterwards, add it into the mixture of cheese and milk. stir for a while.
6. then, generously pour them onto the layer of biskut meri + butter just now.
7. crush Oreo cookies on top. if you like.
8. let it cool inside your fridge.

it tastes nice. i mean, it has no flour at all so don't expect something like a chiffon cake or sponge cake or anything. but if you've tasted new york cheese cake, you'll know what i mean.
happy cake-ing and Salam Aidilfitri 1432H =)

it's when i know i shouldn't the most is when i'll just keep a straight face a do it anyway =='

2011-08-17T22:03:00.001+08:00

when will it stop? i mean, i see my friends just going on with their lives like hormone isn't always there to make their world go crazy. i know my hormone does that to me... T____T

on the second thought, i don't want it to go away. i want to keep being myself (and trying to improve everyday because we never know which breath might be the last) & just enjoy life. everyday is a new experience and meeting new people is exciting - that is, people who are friendly. (i'm not the friendliest person in the world, have to admit that, unless to people who showed friendliness to me first. aha. a bit of a proud eh? not really. just minding my own business =p)

and so recently, i found a link to an interesting blog on fb. interesting article that is.

she's a 19-year-old, a matriculation-leaver & the same goes to her boyfriend. they've been together for six years and they just don't think they should hold on any longer so they decided to get married. the interesting part is, her father gave the blessing (for them to get married at this age) BEFORE she had the courage to ask (getting married is kind of a big deal, you see. especially when they are both jobless & higher-education-less. yeah, i made that word up. but you see my point right?). meaning to say, her father agreed upon the marriage & actually, kind of encouraging it.

so they got married early, so what? lots of people did that across the globe. my parents did that. so what is my problem with them?

none, really. i'm happy that they decided to make their relationship a 'halal' one and completing half of the faith (menyempurnakan separuh agama). all's well that ends well. whatever that means.

but....

there's another opinion from another blog which are saying that yes, love is fine, love is great and especially when everything, and i do mean everything, every hijabs in between are now gone.

but love isn't everything that makes for a successful marriage now is it?

there a few more vital and super-important points which will make for an astute foundation of a marriage. for instance, when the flame dies (and rest assured, the flame will die), it's the sense of belonging, the attachment to each other that will keep the marriage alive. i read a research once that if after 4 years together and you still feel like your partner is the one then maybe you are made for each other. (the 19-year-old couple have been together for 6 years; so maybe it is true love). if you don't feel like you belong to each other anymore then surely that's not the one.

but who has 4 years to waste on finding true love? nobody. you may say "hey, that's life. c'est la vie. deal with it." and then i'll say "i have no 4 years to waste on one person trying to figure out if he's the one. and that 4 years surely are not 4 of the best-est years of my life. surely maksiat will be a big part of my life, now that i'm determined to make sure if he's the one. and so does his."

is there no other way about it? i mean, i'm jealous that my friends can stroll about around the campus with a boyfriend in hand, proudly posting on fb that she's got someone special. i'm dead jealous. should i find one too and stick with him for 4 years, see if it'll work out?

i don't have that kind of luxury nor do i know if i'll live that long, or longer (so that i'll have time to repent for all that i did during the 4 years courting ==')

Islam has a way. and trust me when i say (ini pulak Ramadhan tak baiklah nak menipu kan? tak boleh nak kata syaitan yang suruh menipu. heee....:p) if you ask from Him, He will grant. it's just a matter of time. and if He doesn't grant it here, you'll get it in the hereafter. we planned, He planned too. His plans are the greatest.

when your heart goes bila cinta ini, tak lagi bermakna, yang kurasa kini hanyalah nestapa...
or maybe you prefer english love songs like this love is unbreakable, it's unmistakable, each time i look in your eyes...
and you kind of want to say saya suka awak, i love you, aishiteru, saranghaeyo, wo ai neee....

turn to Him and ask Him in your prayers. istikharah. my father always says istikharah is not just for big decisions. small daily decisions in life can lead to a big mistake sometimes. that's why total dependence on Him is the best way.

if your istikharah doesn't exactly answer you, see how you feel after the prayer. it may take days, months maybe before you can get you answer but surely if you have to wait that long (months, i mean) that means he/she isn't really the one? i don't know. you'll know it yourself.

and so, telling you to tell me that when the lovebug bites, take it to the Creator of the bug. He knows why the bug bit - and if you should give in to the powerful poison the bug brought with the sting ;)

hilarious, sir =='

2011-07-28T03:32:00.000+08:00

today in Language Support class, sir zack-ee taught us about quotations. " " is a quotation mark, fyi. ok. that's about it. and oh, you should cite the original speaker or writer.

sir gave us sheets of examples of quotations in an essay and asked us to find'em. there are a few different types of citation like there's (Farren-Larsen, 1986: 131) and there's like (Andrews, 1996)

and then jie slowly whispered it to me:
"kalau situ ado page, sini takdok sebab dio tok ingat page berapo."

being a good friend, i tried repeating after her:
"hok ni ade page, hok ni takdok page."

sir zack, unfortunately was nearby and i was loud enough for him to hear. he then, big jester he was, responded:
"hok ni ade page, hok ni takdok page. hok tu?"

the class was roaring with laughter right after that. i was so embarrassed ... >.<
you see, i'm one of the proud Terengganu-ians in the class but sir zack somehow marked me as a proud Kemaman girl and will always use Terengganu dialect with much stress. that is undeniably true though. XD

here is an example of a quotation:

"Even though cats sits on mats, we must remember that cats can also sit on other surfaces. It is essential that we keep the multifunctional nature of cats and their possible seating options firmly in mind." (Smith, 1994, 20)

why the h are we talking about cats seating options, we have no idea =='

Sekali Lagi

2011-07-20T23:11:00.000+08:00

there is a certain significance to that title but let me just say, Shaheizy Sam was not bad at all playing an autisme (autistik, in Malay) guy.

all in all, Sekali Lagi tried to break from a few typical turnouts i had in my mind while watching this movie. but it is pretty light and just the right choice if you don't want to burden your head thinking about the movie. just sit back, relax and enjoy a slow love story for an evening in.

(from the back cover, loosely translated by me)
Arman is an autisme sufferer, soon-to-be-married to Farina because of a mistake he didn't commit. But Arman didn't realized that Farina has been lying. Arman met Amy and the two became friends without they realizing that they are actually bonded by something stronger. Arman confided a lot in Amy and Amy, although just a five-year-old, is a smart kid. Amy gave a lot of advice to Arman. She also advised Arman who he is doubtful about going through with his marriage. Haris...

credit pic: ademncats.com

hormone

2011-06-21T23:33:00.000+08:00

~~okay seriously - i don't like this. this is bad.~~

~~stop, please. i really like you, i do. in a way, more than some other.~~
but should we do this? i mean, it's like we are two people struggling to prove the same thing to one another while all it really is and (maybe) have always been is just a way for us to avoid admitting the much lighted upon obviousness and the inevitable.

~~i don't like it. and yes, i strongly feel that i am still waaa......y too far from becoming a person who can handle another's.~~

~~there'll be hearts. pieces of it.~~

eggless chocolate cake

2011-06-05T09:52:00.001+08:00

as suggested by teacher Hawa....taadaaahh...!

(recipe from here)

Bahan2 utk 1 loyang kecik:

Bahan A

1 cawan / 120 gram tepung gandum
1 cawan / 180gram gula halus
3 sudu besar serbuk koko
1 sudu kecil baking soda
1 sudu kecil baking powder
1/2 sudu kecil garam
(i added choc buttons. just for fun:p)

Bahan B

1/3 cawan / 80ml minyak sayuran atau minyak masak
1 sudu besar cuka
1 sudu kecil vanilla
1/2 cawan air sejuk
1/2 cawan susu sejat

Cara2:

Ayak Bahan A, dan masukkan dalam mixing bowl. Gaul sebati.
Campurkan bahan B, dan masukkan dalam bahan A. Gaul sebati
Masukkan dalam loyang yang dah disapu mentega/minyak sedikit.
Bakar dalam oven pada 180C selama 30 min atau hingga tester bersih bila dicucuk keluar dari kek <-- i use steaming method.
Boleh dihias dengan topping pilihan =)

and this is how it looks like:

if you're a Nigella fan, you'll know those cracks on top of a cake are her favourite spot to pour some liquid chocolate. yummers!

it is unbelievably moist!

baking is so much fun! i want to try soup next. maybe later. ;)

What, seriously? No one cares that there’s a cobra in there?

2011-06-03T23:04:00.000+08:00

the title above is my one of my favorite line by Morgan Grimes in Chuck season 4. and guess what, by the way season 4 ended, i'm guessing Morgan is about to get all masculine, tall, strong man which probably means Alex, daughter of John Casey will stay around as the faithful girlfriend:) btw, they are my fav couple after the title character & his wife (but since they are married now we really need to find another couple to watch their progress all the same keep hoping they'll end up changing 'I do's as well).

i love season 4. perfectly-choreographed fights, beautiful sceneries from all over the world (idk if they are real or comp trick, but i personally like Loire Valley, French), FUNNY LINES and delightful ending. beautiful wedding gown Sarah, btw.

as usual, can't wait for the next season. which will be season 5!;)

credit pic: blog.zap2it.com

car key oh car key. why art thou inside?

2011-06-03T16:01:00.001+08:00

at home, warm up the engine...suddenly, car was locked from the inside...the engine was running...the alarm thing's battery was out...went to fix the thing...almost run into a huge MISC lorry (ps: change the signal lamp at the back please. they were dead)...running like mad to get the alarm fix...the first shop, the lady didn't have any idea what she was dealing with...had to go to a 2nd shop...got the thing fixed...rushed home at 100km/h...didn't work, the lock didn't budge...waited for super bro-in-law...one thin copper wire later, voila!

morale: don't ever think u can go anywhere without ur mom's blessings;)

credit goes to: my brother (whose car key stuck inside the car whilst he was not even around - the misfortune was caused by me & my sister. sorry bro!), Sad and my sis' bf Ayie. the three of them gave us the same trick to open the car's door = removed the rubber lining between the window and the driver's side door of the car. a trick which we evidently didn't use but thanks. it's the enthusiasm that counts:)

steamed custard cake

2011-06-01T11:59:00.004+08:00

me and cooking are like, earphone and roses. they don't go together. just simply don't.

but one day, after browsing through hundreds of recipes in teacher Hawa's blog, i decided that i can make one lousy cake. i mean, how hard can a cake be? (cakap besar di situ)

and so today, armed with all the ingredients i bought yesterday at TMC, at approximately 9.00am, i started my journey from a girl (who doesn't know how to cook AT ALL) to a semi-woman (who knows how to bake now^^).

(c & p the recipes from teacher Hawa's blog. tq soooooo....... much! i luv u;))

BAHAN KEK ::

125 gram mentega
1/3 cawan gula halus @ gula kastor
1 biji telur gred A
3/4 cawan tepung naik sendiri (self raising flour)
1/2 cawan tepung kastard
1/2 camca teh esen vanilla

BAHAN KASTARD :

1 camca besar tepung kastard
1 camca besar gula kastor
2/3 cawan susu segar
15 gram mentega (kurang lebih 1 camca teh)
2 camca teh esen vanilla

CARA MEMBUATNYA:

1. UNTUK KASTARD :- Satukan semua bahan untuk kastard kecuali mentega dan esen vanilla. Kacau rata dengan whisk dan masak dengan api perlahan sambil terus dikacau hingga pekat. Padam api, tambah mentega dan esen vanilla, kacau rata dan biar sejuk. Ketepikan.
2. Panaskan oven pada suhu 175C, lenser tin bulat saiz 7 inci. Ketepikan.
3. Putar mentega dengan gula halus hingga berkrim, masuk telur dan putar hingga kembang. Tambah esen vanilla. Perlahankan kelajuan, masukkan tepung naik sediri + tepung kastard sedikit demi sedikit hingga habis. Gaul rata.
4. Masukkan 1/2 adunan ke dalam bekas yang telah disediakan, ratakan dan buat sedikit lubang ditengah2nya. Tuang kastard, ratakan dan tutup dengan baki adunan, ratakan dan bakar selama 30 minit atau hingga masak. <- saya kukus
5. Sejukkan sebelum dihidangkan. Jika suka boleh ayak gula aising atas permukaan kek sebagai penyeri...Selamat mencuba!!!

(for those of you who doesn't understand Malay, please use Google translate. & no, this ad is not sponsored by Google)

in the 'loyang' (container)

tadaaaahh....... but it's very fragile. can't hold its shape thus the misshapen 'blob' on the plate...:(

anyway, my Ma and Ayah gave thumbs up so i feel a little relaxed at the very fragile steamed cake. Ma even said i can bake one during our coming Hari Raya Aidilfitri. wuuhuuu....that's a big honor. thanks Ma;)

cooking is fun. never thought i'd say that one day.

(tecnically, what i did was baking but it fell in the same category right? hihi)

From the top!

2011-05-31T13:16:00.000+08:00

goodbye, Glee season 2. it had been fun. awesome songs, epic fights and jaw-dropping runs. can't wait for season 3!

credit pic: xernest.com

paltrow is funny and criss is straight.

2011-05-29T18:05:00.000+08:00

(this is what happens when you have a lot of free time and you watch Glee too much)

Gwyneth Paltrow as Holly Holiday makes me think if she's as funny as the character she portrayed in Glee. because if she is, her husband is one lucky guy. there are so many of her lines that cracked me.

Brittany: Why are we sitting on the floor?
Holly: Cause we're in Japan.

Holly: Hello, class. I am the world most famous and stylish divorcee, Wallace Simpson. I was married a bunch of times then I fell in love with Edward VIII and made him abdicate the throne. I had giant hands so a lot of people thought I was a hermaphrodite but that wasn't true. Others said that I was a Nazi sympathizer. That was true. Boy, did I think that Hitler showed promise.

lol XD

i was having my lunch when the scene of Blaine suddenly kissing Kurt played on my screen and i had to stop eating for a few seconds. okay, that was not the first guy-kiss-another-guy scene in Glee but the other one was a short and not passionate kiss. Blaine and Kurt both have feelings for each other so just (don't) imagine their kiss.

anyway, that kiss scene got me wonder, is Darren Criss (actor who plays Blaine Anderson) really gay? i mean, when i checked out Chris Colfer (Kurt Hummel), he really is what he plays. and Jonathan Groff (Jessie St. James) too! and Groff played straight. it's very hard to tell..@.@

which is why i was shocked when i read from this website, i found out that he's straight. which is awesome. it's such a waste if he's gay. like Rachel said: in the future, give me a vaguely Eurasian-looking children.

this post is really just my way of filling my time.

credit pics: dailymail.co.uk , entertainment.ofwnow.com

unrealistic, but happy & realistic, but it bites

2011-05-28T23:19:00.000+08:00

i'm home now and have plenty of times to just spend hours staring (read: watching) at my laptop's screen and ticking off those movies i've been putting off to watch (like pride & prejudice, TO KILL A MOCKINGBIRD, and a few which are still playing at the cinemas).

so the other day, my sis asked how to download a movie (okay, i know it's morally wrong but personally, if it's wrong then why are there still sites to download movies from? i mean, it's torrents but still. and let's be honest, who doesn't do that especially if you have stable internet connection at home?) and then i taught her how. it's good that i am such an avid downloader, there was no need for her to do anything than just open a link that i sent her and voila! wait until the download is done, pop some corn (okay really, it sounds nice. that's why i wrote it) and enjoy your movie.

she wanted to watch You've Got Mail (starred by Meg Ryan and some guy... urgh. i know him. this is not the first movie of him that i've watched. okay2. alright, thanks Google. Tom Hanks. that's the guy) and i don't know the motivations behind her choice but i think i'd like to watch it too. (i know the movie is like a decade old, maybe older. idk. but they say a good movie is always timeless, right?;))

so after i got back two days ago, i've downloaded two episodes of Glee season 2 (E 16 & 17. love, the show) and a complete season 4 of Chuck (same. love it. can't get enough of it.), i took the movie YGM from my bro's laptop and started watching.

very pretty setting. beautiful story. but Kathleen Kelly and Joe Fox's love story is very unlikely to happen in the real world. i mean, the guy just put your business that you've inherited from your mother, who before got it from her mother, out. Kathleen forgave him - and i don't think what Joe did was an admirable effort. so, so. thus, with that, YGM is a nice movie. not all-time-favorite worthy though. sorry.

after YGM, i re-watch Glee S02E17 and again, almost cried at the scene where Holly is leaving Will. it's hard to say goodbye, especially when we realize that the person that we love is actually in love with someone else. it's universal. it's sad, and it's realistic. close to us.

(oh man. i just gave away spoilers, didn't i? at least for gleeks in Malaysia who choose to wait and watch on StarWorld. sorry>.<)

credit pics: amazon.com, gleeky.tumblr.com

i wouldn't say 'greatest', but it measures up;)

2011-05-22T17:52:00.000+08:00

one of the most unique proposal i've ever heard/watched/read. it's so out of the box, the first time i watched it, the first half of the video didn't make sense =='

and yes. you've got to watch it more than once because it's so out of this world!

Macbeth dramatization

2011-05-19T14:49:00.000+08:00

great fun. that's all i can say.

okay, it has flaws. like many great productions. (i even spotted one in avatar. so there:p) and when can human escapes imperfections? never. so yeah, our production was flawed.

flaw #1:
we made the props for Wood of Birnam (fast fact: the wood which a messenger saw and he thought it was moving - and it was moving because the English army have cut down one tree for each soldier to use as a shield - and the messenger go tell Macbeth about the moving Wood of Birnam which means the prophecy of the witches is becoming true which also means it's a bad news for Macbeth) but because of technical difficulties (mat mi didn't come inside the curtain and i didn't remember about the wood at all. sorry guys. i still remember the hardship we endured to bring the polystyrene back to the hostel)

flaw #2:
we also made the shields for Macbeth's and Macduff's use but once, both Macbeth (mat mi) and Macduff (me) forgot all about the shields and fought like how we fight in rehearsals; with our swords and a lot of fake angry shouts. well i scream, mostly. and cursed too. haha. i was supposed to be mad at Macbeth, so it only stands to reason.

there were also a few fun facts (a lot i think, but i can only think of a few) of our dramatization and i'd like to remember them again if someday we look back to this and we want to laugh at how silly we were. okee. this is getting weird. i sound like an 80-year-old=.=

fun fact #1:
izzati isa drew me a moustache. no, not on a paper. on my FACE! oh man, you should've seen it. and no, i'm not going to upload the memorable photos they took of me while the moustache was still stuck above my upper lip. i think i looked like my father when he was young. but i'm supposed to look like my mother, shouldn't i? urgh. it's okay-lah. if i'm going to look like a boy i might as well kick-ass at it. haha. (meaning, look handsome-lah. like my Mr. Ayah=D

fun fact #2:
one of the group 'igak' (catch) a cat to use as one of the apparitions that appear after being summoned by the witches. but the cat became terrified on the stage (stage fright, i think. haha:D) and ran away. poor kitty. didn't even get to finish it's part. but the audience laughed. so i think the cat won some points;)

that's all i can think of for the time being people. have a nice weekend (for east-coasters only).

teslians KDRI rock!

2011-05-17T12:15:00.001+08:00

(i hate greetings especially during blogging. i mean, i answer the phone with "Assalamualaikum" but it just didn't feel right to write it here. especially when there's a lot of ~~nonsense~~ written down here which i am not proud of. so i'm just gonna leave the part where i'm supposed to write down the greetings for my readers blank and not bother explaining it again in any other posts afterwards. thank you.)

so we went to Taman Budaya Negeri Terengganu which is located in Kuala Ibai which is if you ask me to show you the way then we won't reach it because i don't know how we ended up there (it's near the Masjid Tengku Zaharah which is more popularly known as 'Masjid Terapung'/Floating Mosque, but i can't be more helpful than that) and we went there because we (and by we i mean me and my classmates - IPGKSM Teslians) were cordially invited by IPGKDRI Teslians to watch their performance of Macbeth (fast fact: Macbeth is our literature-to-be-studied this semester and to perform the play is a must or else you'd get zero for coursework meaning it's as if you didn't sit for your English Studies paper that sem, which is ridiculous because we don't have exams for sem 1 and sem 2. okay, this is getting frustratingly confusing. never you mind. i'll explain the complicated system some other time=.=)

anyway... so there we were, watching them. and they were great. like Sir Zaki (our tutor) said:
"Simple costumes, yet effective."
i tried to record the whole thing by using D90 (thank you my brother:D) but it was so torturing. the blood was draining from my hand and it gives a weird sense of light-headed and i thought i was going to faint. but i didn't. the memory (card) was not enough though so there were a few final scenes that i didn't get.

at the end of the day, their Lady Macbeth was the most sought-after character for the guys in my class and Angus was for the girls. except me i think. somehow, that Angus (they say his name is saad? arafat? something-lah) looks a little bit too much like our Azrul. we have that in IP KSM so why bother? haha=D

anyway, you guys in KDRI knows how to rock;) and i gotta go rock our own Macbeth interpretation. i'll post some pics (or if you're lucky, a video) later.

Akhlak Mulia=)

2011-05-14T20:35:00.000+08:00

i thought of translating my ta'lim notes to english but then it felt weird. and i want to write something meaningful here. other than my usual ~~crap~~. so here goes.

Rasulullah SAW ada bersabda:

Sesungguhnya aku diutus untuk menyempurnakan akhlak manusia. (Riwayat Ahmad)

define akhlak:
jie - "peribadi"
irah - "sifat"
me - "tindak-tanduk"

Imam al-Ghazali ada menyebut:

Akhlak ialah sesuatu yang tertanam di dalam jiwa yang mendorong untuk melakukan perbuatan dengan mudah tanpa pertimbangan terlebih dahulu.

akhlak itu ada 2:
1. akhlak kepada Allah
2. akhlak sesama makhluk

Akhlak kepada Allah
1. beriman kepada Allah
2. beribadat ikhlas kerana Allah
3. sentiasa bertaubat kepada Allah (taubat yg paling disukaiNya: taubat nasuha & taubat org muda^^)
4. melaksanakan perkara wajib dan fardhu
5. redha menerima qada' dan qadar

Akhlak sesama makhluk
1. akhlak sesama manusia (Rasulullah SAW, ibu bapa, suami/isteri, adik-beradik, etc.)
2. akhlak dengan makhluk (malaikat, jin, tumbuhan, haiwan, alam semesta, etc.)

dan manusia yang lemah seperti kita ini, bagaimana hendak melatih diri untuk berakhlak mulia?

1. mengambil Junjungan Mulia Muhammad SAW sebagai 'role model' utama. tak dilupakan, sahabat-sahabat, tabi-tabi'in. baca sirah-sirah, dalami dan hayati akhlak mulia mereka.

2. kembali kepada Al-Quran. 2/3 isi Al-Quran adalah berkenaan akhlak.

3. kemantapan ilmu.
bak kata falsafah pendidikan kebangsaan: proses pembelajaran sepanjang hayat.

hadis-hadis Nabi yang lain:

Islam itu akhlak yang baik.

Tidak ada sesuatu yang berat timbangannya melainkan akhlak yang mulia.

Orang yang sempurna imannya adalah orang yang baik akhlaknya.

credit goes to Kak Mira, my ta'lim 'mother' for these very nice points and reminders. human needs to be reminded all the time because the brain is, somehow, in this modern era, tends to forget good values and the bad ones are easier to find (and to absorb too, at that!) and so i want to do something about it. even if me myself am still learning and correcting and improvising. hey, what are teachers for? and teachers are still human;)

busier than ever

2011-05-14T02:52:00.001+08:00

1. just got back from language camp in Marang last week
2. going to IPGKDRI this Sunday to watch their TESL Foundation's production of Macbeth
3. to (just do a lot of things) for our own production of Macbeth this coming Wednesday
4. going to Perhentian island for last sem's PE course pro-forma (which is not necessary for us to still do it but c'mon, when else will you go to an island with your friends and have fun?)

truth is, i can't wait to leave the land of Besut and go back to the land where i come from. even with a busy schedule like the above, i have never felt more lonely. and if i have to feel lonely in the midst of people, at least let me be in the midst of the people that i love. home i where my heart is.

be patient=)

2011-05-07T15:22:00.000+08:00

76: Maka janganlah ucapan mereka menyedihkan kamu. Sesungguhnya Kami mengetahui apa yang mereka rahasiakan dan apa yang mereka nyatakan.

- Surat ke 36. Yasin, Juz 23

note-to-self: husna, never be sad because of what people said unless what they are saying are true and you know that it was wrong for you to do it. otherwise, "tak mati dek keji, tak hidup dek puji." keep smiling=)

blue eyes

2011-05-01T08:09:00.001+08:00

i have never left my hometown, kemaman for longer than a few days before my age reach 18 years and i was offered to do TESL (which was what i want to do. is. i mean is.) in a district of about 4-5 hours drive away. which is a new experience. (ooh, forgot about my detour to penang. that one was about a month and a half. penang was nice. i would want to go again^^).

so, when i come back to my hometown this weekend, it seemed like many things have change and because this one is a three-day holiday, i had time to absorb all new facts with clearer head and slower pace. (yes, i am slow. deal with it.)

yesterday, my sis asked me to go jog with her at padang astaka. i don't jog cause if i do then she'll be rushing me to hospital kemaman's emergency room (where most of the staffs already know me) in the next hour. let's not waste the day like that alrite? but i did went to padang astaka

^ this one is not new

and then, my sis brought me to taste her self-acclaimed 'the best nasi lemak' in kemaman.

all i can say is that, it might be the best in terms of 'other people making it'. my mum's would be the best in kemaman (or the best for me, haha^^)

happy mother's day everybody. appreciate your moms;)

glee fever

2011-04-13T14:20:00.000+08:00

glee is the best musical movie/drama i have ever come across. uh, with the exception of a certain number of animation movies (none of the barbie ~~crap~~ of course).

so one day, my classmates just started to think they can pull off a glee number (or a few, according to the storyline i wrote them. haha!^^) and i had to go through the episodes of glee i have had in my teruntum for quite some time.

and it is amazing, yes i have to agree. but can we (and by 'we' i mean them. i won't be up there singing and dancing. that's a private ritual, not public) pull the numbers off?

i honestly can't wait to watch them doing it. meanwhile, for real glee act, catch the latest episodes on Star World (Astro 711). happy watching!

credit photo: blogs.babble.com

the biggest war you could have within yourself (and it is the biggest war of all)

2011-04-10T01:43:00.001+08:00

i used to think that the war with our nafsu is uncontrollable. especially for me, that would be the eating (T.T) and craziness of the gadgets of which i have had my eyes on for a while. among all other much controllable desires.

but it is indeed 'the other one'. 'the other one' i'm talking about is a common cause of today's teenagers' many, mind-blowing problems. having experienced it first-hand this recent weekend, now i knew how easily it would have been to listen to 'the other one' and break all the principles i have hold dearest to my heart for so long and embarrassing my parents in the process.

don't get me wrong. things like that (where nafsu was so close to winning) doesn't happen often. i'm not that kind of girl. but i am growing up and it doesn't feel as safe to be close to the opposite sex as it used to.

i keep (almost) no secret from my parents. so when i went home last weekend with a boy and i told them that...(i can't lie. or keep it hidden for long. one of my many faults.)

(i told Ma when she was watching TV dramas and i was fb-ing in my brother's room)

Ma: Laa... ingat ke budok puang. budok hok Na sokmo tumpang balik tu ke?
me: ha? yg Na tumpang keta dia tu?
Ma: (nodded)
me: dok ah. hok tu duduk ******. hok ni duduk ****.
Ma: emph.

(i told Ayah when he was sending me to board the Mutiara Ekspres)

Ayah: Uh'uh..ada hok nok kene pulas telinga ni.
me: (becoming as small as i can be) hehe. doh Ayah dok tanya Na balik ngan sape..
Ayah: Ayah tanya doh. engkau kata member, member.
me: ada ke? hehe.
Ayah: kelas apa?
me: sama la. bahasa inggeris.
Ayah: hee... cari la ustaz-ustaz ke..
me: ustaz la tu.
Ayah: engkau kata kelas bahasa inggeris?
me: hehe.
(this dialogue has to be cut short for safety reasons. there are prides at stake and faces to protect.)

at the end of our conversation, Ayah reminded me to always remember the boundaries between a man and a woman's relationship. no, no staring. just look once and then turn the other way. which is hard for a champion starer like me. hihi. capital NO TOUCHING. touching an 'ajnabi's hand is like touching the flaming stones of Hell. Ma also told me to always remember them and protect their names before i do anything. now, all of these advices made me feel like i'm such a rotten egg...T.T

it's for my own good. really. that's why i ran away just now. ONE LOOK, right? i can't do that if the 'one' to look at is just at the next table. so running away was a safe option.

moral of the story: i should not sit next to an 'ajnabi' ever again. especially if we already know each other.

Wa la taqrabu al-zina

Lat Kampung Boy Sebuah Muzikal

2011-04-03T08:48:00.001+08:00

"Teater ini secara kasarnya mengisahkan bagaimana Dato’ Mohamad Nor bin Khalid atau lebih dikenali sebagai Lat, dibesarkan di kampung dengan kehidupan yang sederhana, berpindah ke Bandar Ipoh kerana ayahnya menginginkan kehidupan dan pendidikan yang lebih baik untuk beliau. Di Bandar Ipohlah Dato’ Lat mendapat dorongan daripada guru sekolah rendahnya, Mrs. Hew untuk percaya dengan bakat melukis yang ada dalam dirinya. Dijayakan oleh pelakon-pelakon terkenal seperti Awie, Atilia, Jalil Hamid, Omar Abdullah, Sandra Sodhy dan Pushpa Narayan, Kampung Boy Sebuah Muzikal dipentaskan di Panggung Sari, Istana Budaya daripada 16 Mac hingga 3 April 2011." - from my own report

my confidant

2011-04-03T00:17:00.002+08:00

i'm afraid she's in a bit of a troubled world herself, i really shouldn't bother her with my stories of yet another case of 'Halo'.

i am at the brink of giving up on they of the same race and religion - mainly because i am not looking for anything. "poor and content is rich and rich enough." -Shakespeare

so, my dearest confidant, if i'm calling you then i'll say these:
1. he's from the east, like your fend;)
2. okay honestly, i don't even care if he's from jamaica. what puts him on my radar was his ability to play football^^
3. oh you should've seen him! (excited eyes) i misjudged his 'cover' when his 'content' is actually like a 180 degrees. he looked like an innocent nerd when he is actually quite a competent player..(dreamy eyes)

i have to say, the 2nd and the 3rd reasons are the real reason why i didn't call you for this. even when i say this is more chronic than the previous 'Halo' case.

let me just say, i dream of driving a Satria Neo one day. it's a hell of a car.

Rango

2011-03-27T19:36:00.000+08:00

when my sister first mentioned "Johnny Depp is Rango. Jom pergi tengok!" with a brilliant face lighted up with the most incredible idea of the century, i just had to immediately agreed to do it. we are both big fans of Johnny Depp anyway. it just had to happen. except when reality wouldn't be so kind. i study (and reside, currently and obviously) in the northest of the north of Terengganu and my sister is living at home, where my heart is, which is in the southest of the south of Terengganu which is also about 4-5 hours-drive away.

so, when my class is in KL and the itineraries said "Friday night, TGV KLCC. (optional)", of course i would immediately pick up my phone and text my (married, haha^^) brother saying "Let's go watch Rango! You, me and Kak CT. Friday night." (it's just, i need some more time to wrap my mind around the fact that he is now a married man. i just have to accept that there is one woman who has more rights on him than i do nowadays. and that he is actually a charmer. how else would he charmed that lovely Kak CT then?(=) sure enough, he replied with an enthusiastic "Yes!!" and there we were, TGV KLCC for the much anticipated Rango.

funny, witty and charming. like Johnny Depp himself was Rango. well technically, Rango was voiced by Depp but it was as if the character 'Rango' was written with JD in mind. maybe it was. i should check the facts. (like Dato' Lat's old boss at NSTP used to shout at him: "check your facts!" yeah, i caught Kampung Boy Sebuah Muzikal at Istana Budaya. spensive tickets. not for "rakyat marhaen" like me. but it was very enjoyable. 9/10 for both Awie's and Atilia's vocals. superb. no, no. this is for another entry. moving on.)

Rango is a chameleon. a bit delusional one i think, but perhaps that is just a part of his charm. he was a pet chameleon, kept in a terrarium with ample water supply and a few real-but-static friends. when he was somehow, by cruel twist of fate, dropped in the middle of the desert, he found himself to be dehydrating extremely fast and in desperate need of water.

he then found a female lizard (iguana), Beans, which after one confrontation and one acquaintance, she offered a ride for Rango. the ride though, did not reach the town in which Rango was hoping to find some water.

the town, when Rango (which real name is not Rango and remained a mystery throughout the movie) arrived, was not as Rango had expected. luckily, he's had a bit of practice in acting and thus he began his phony act, fooled the town for a while and got tangled in the mayor's bigger act. he's got a good luck though. he sort out the messes and the town was freed from the evil mayor. the end.

p/s: the movie was great, but i'd want to watch it again on my laptop. can't concentrate the other day because the theater was full and i was tired. couldn't enjoy the silky smooth voice of Johnny Depp to the fullest.

credit photo: http://www.flicksandbits.com/2011/03/01/3-minute-clip-from-%E2%80%98rango%E2%80%99-%E2%80%93-featuring-the-voice-cast-of-johnny-depp-isla-fisher-alfred-molina/8201/

The Social Network

2011-03-24T00:10:00.000+08:00

to be honest, my two latest favourite movies would be The Social Network and The King's Speech (the two movies that had their share of fights at award events) and i had intended to review both albeit my reviews are lame, incomprehensible at times and even incorrect for some unfortunate movies. i will still review the movies i've watched.

however, seemed that my brother had reviewed The King's Speech, i wouldn't fare better than him so let me just bring you to the other movie of the year (for now); The Social Network.

TSN was inspired by David Fincher's The Accidental Billionaires. it's about the origination of the mind-blowing, blood-sucking and addictive-as-hell website called Facebook.

Mark Zuckerberg, played brilliantly by Jesse Eisenberg, was a genius sophomore at Harvard University with average look and a little bit high self-consciousness (made even more badly after insensitive comments thrown at him by ex-girlfriend Erica Albright). the dump proved to be something of a blessing for him because (flashing far, far forward now) Facebook today worths 50 billion dollars.

this story of the founding of Facebook is told through flashbacks during two lawsuits faced by Mark; one from the Winklevosses twins (Armie Hammer) and their partner Divya Narendra (Max Minghella) and another one from Eduardo Saverin (Andrew Garfield). can't recall any other movies that i like which used this method of story-telling but TSN pulled it off almost flawlessly.

Mark was approached by Cameron, Tyler and Divya after he made a website which allows Harvard students to rate the female students based on their hotness. the girls were obviously furious when their private facebook profile photos were illegally published at the website and be compared to each other (Mark hacked the other houses' facebooks in order to gain the pictures). however, the site was a major success among the guys and it caused the Harvard's network to almost crash.

the Winklevosses and Narendra were impressed by Zuckerberg's talent in computer programming and asked him to work with them to build a site where women could get on with Harvard guys called Harvard Connection. in the flashback, Mark remembered that he said 'yes' to them (to the proposition to work with them) but when asked by the lawyer, Mark said something about his answer was very vague to him because he had said it three or four years ago. Mark ended up did not build Harvard Connection but instead he came up with another idea (perhaps inspired by Harvard Connection) which he called The Facebook. this caused the lawsuit from the said Harvard's upperclassmen.

on another story, Mark was sued by his best friend and co-founder of Facebook Eduardo because he had diluted Eduardo's shares in Facebook from 30%++ down to 0.03%. Eduardo admitted that he did not read the papers first shoved to his face to sign because he himself was excited about the new 500,00 dollars investment made Peter Thiel but the second time around, when more papers were asked of him to sign, he started reading and he realised he made a huge mistake signing the first papers.

in the end, the Winklevosses and Narendra were paid to sign a non-disclosure agreement while Eduardo's name is back as the co-founder of Facebook.

i wouldn't know how the lawsuit from Eduardo was resolved but i am just glad it did. because Mark and Eduardo are a symbol that money can't replaced friendship and that's the moral of the story.

p/s: my friend said that the real Mark Zuckerberg's friends were not happy about the movie because it did not reflect the true reality. oh well, the movie's fine by me.

credit picture: http://www.cheri-movie.com/archives/378

Easy A

2011-03-23T18:27:00.000+08:00

i watched this movie, i think no more than a month ago but it felt like a hundred years because i've been re-watching it for so many times i've lost count. i couldn't review it any sooner because:

a. i just got the soft-copy no more than a month ago and so please don't mind the time-frame between the moment Easy A was released and the second i decide to write this post.

b. i was facing my TESL foundation course mock-exam which, even though didn't stop me from playing the movie in the background while i'm studying with a serious studious face, did stop me from posting my so-called movie review on this very humble blog.

okay. that's settled. so the movie was great fun. no, to say it was just a 'great fun' for me would be 'a bit of an understatement, guvnor!' - i never even know the existence of The Scarlet Letter and already i think i would want to read it. maybe not watch it. i like Sony's quality on the movies i watched.

Easy A is about Olive Penderghast (Emma Stone), normal and below-average breast size (as had been stressed in the movie) teenager in Ojai, California looking to spice up her image to get more notice from the opposite sex teenagers. or more like, accidentally looking now that Marianne Bryant (Amanda Bynes) had nonchalantly did that for her.

if this is a tv-series, i'd be a serious fan for it. olive's parents are just awesome, olive's a good girl (with just a good intention to help out her schoolmates) and mr. griffith is better off without that who*ing wife of his.

fun movie. coming into the closet as one of all-time fav. along with Freaky Friday, Shrek (1, 2, 3 & 4), Toy Story (1, 2 & 3), The Corpse Bride and a few others.

credit photo: misssunflower.com

positively nerve-wrecked

2011-03-11T09:21:00.000+08:00

i wrote about her once. never thought i'd be writing one special, last post for her.

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she struck me as an anime-lover. an AC of some sort. beautiful drawings and she often showed them to me, especially when she just finished drawing and very enthusiastic about it.

i'm going to miss that enthusiasm.

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(she was in the same car with Joseph and Iniyan but she was in coma up until eight hours ago)

R.I.P., Goh Shu Yin (1992-2011)

numbing

2011-03-10T23:11:00.000+08:00

too young. 19 is too young. i am 19 and i too think 19 is young.

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but death comes. promised to every living thing - never slowed, nor fasten. you can be 19 or you can be 90. you will die.

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he was sitting next to me. his phone rang once, surprised the entire class for we were sitting for our last paper. we laughed. but i don't remember i heard his. a smile maybe, but hardly a laugh. now that i think about it, i should've tried to bring the laugh out of him.

i remembered some time from our last sem when we were thrown together and i got to ask him all these personal questions. he was a brilliant science student back in school. so i asked him the most obvious question:

"why didn't your pursue in science?"

after a lengthy pause, he said:

"i want to become a teacher." simple. with his usual innocent-like smile.

...

i said to some of my classmates the other day:
"if he ever converts, dibs."

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he was an accomplish speaker, a punctual by nature. material of a leader. (forever in envy with him about that)

i'm usually not punctual, even when i want to. so me and him, i never resolved that. never told him i'm sorry for all the trouble my less-than-punctual nature ever caused him. that's the closest i ever got to him. the closest it will ever be.

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they were my classmates. Phuah Joseph and Iniyan Meganathan. 10/03/2011-R.I.P.

28th

2011-02-28T19:33:00.000+08:00

7am: found out about the bitter lost. i don't cry except for hormone and death. but it ruined my morning.

9am: played netball. got a cut near my left eye.

3pm: played badminton. bruised both my knees.

but all in all it was a fun day.

744 million dollars

2011-02-23T16:55:00.001+08:00

"20 million dollars for plastic surgery and that's the face you chose?"

haha. just gotta like that.

the tourist is a fine movie; just enough twists and turns for a relaxed evening watch.

read from here that perhaps the combination of angelina and johnny is a mere box-office assurance or is there really a chemistry between them? i wouldn't know. they 'felt' weird though. maybe they do make an awkward couple. which is not always a bad thing.

happy touring.

mari memanjat.

2011-02-19T13:50:00.000+08:00

saya akan tulis entri ini dalam dua bahasa~ ecewwahh... . i will write this entry in two languages~ acewwahh...

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ponek la den. bahaso melayu sudoh la dih? len kali plak aku translate. haha=D

pukul 7.05 aku terbangun sebab my bladder tak sabar-sabar nak suruh aku bangun. aku pun terjaga, check encik telepon; 1 mesej belum dibaca. jap2, bladder memulas ni.

err, takpe kot. kutahan air dan kubaca mesej daripada cik puan zati.

"Wanna join hike da bukit keluang at 7.30 am?"

fuhh, awal tu. apa-apa hal pun, buang dulu air yang penuh dalam tangki. dalam jamban pun pikir lagi ni. nak pegi tanak pegi nak pegi tanak pegi.

balik bilik, cik rumate a.k.a cik mira tercongok atas katil beliau. turut sama bangun buang air kot tadi.

"Mir, diorang ajak saya gi panjat bukit ah."
"Gi ah. kan awok dok gi hari tu?"
"Emm. tinggi dop bukit tu? tinggi dari bukit kat gua musang ari tu ke?"
"Emm. tinggi tu saya dok tau ah, tapi lagi curam saya rasa."
"Emm. tatau, tatau nak pegi ke tak."
"Takpe ah. diorang tau awak lelah kan. slow-slow. atas tu cantik. (merujuk kepada pemandangan Pulau Rhu dari atas bukit.)"

lalu, setelah gosok gigi dan basuh muka lebih kurang (yee tawan-tawan...saya ta mandi pagi tadi...=p), ku tukar baju tidur kepada jersi real madrid dan aku pon gerak.

ahli sume skali: diriku, diri izzat, diri jie, diri kash, diri irah, diri man, diri abglong, diri afiq & diri azmi.

ini photographer ~~terlampau~~

kemudian. kami panjat dan panjat dan panjat dan panjat dan panjat lagiii...... (kena ada banyak 'dan' sebab aku lelah a.k.a semput dan terpaksa berenti, tareek napas dulu....hembuss....dan panjat lagi.)

tapi sampai atas......Subhanallah. ciptaanNya yang sempurna.

tapi penat gila kot nak sampai atas. kalau anda ta fit, lari-lari anak dulu keliling kampus, buat 2.4 dulu ke, agak-agak da mantap stamina tu, baru panjat bukit keluang. ahaks!

afiq yang agak ~~pancit~~. hehe. sori bro, sori. aku pun pancit gak:p

lepas sumer-sumer itu berlaku, kami tapau some nasi ayam & nasi air (my rumate mintak ayam sebelah. 9 hengget. terkujat aku!) dan blah. masing-masing pun sudah merindui katil yang memangil-manggil minta dibelai...:D

itu sahaja laporan kali ini dari kampung raja, kota putera besut, terengganu. kita kembali ke studio.

Maulud Nabi S.A.W. 1432Hijr

2011-02-17T22:20:00.000+08:00

Firman Allah, maksudnya: "Pada hal mereka tidak diperintahkan melainkan supaya menyembah Allah dengan mengikhlaskan ibadat kepada-Nya, lagi tetap teguh di atas tauhid dan supaya mereka mendirikan sembahyang serta memberi zakat dan yang demikian itulah agama yang benar."

- Surah al-Bayyinah 5:98

Selawat Allah ke atas Muhammad
Selawat salam dipohon lagi
Wahai nabi salam atasmu
Wahai rasul salam bahagia
Wahai kekasih salam bahagia
Selawat Allah ikuti pula
Bulan purnama menyinari kita
Hilang lenyap segala cahaya
Indah menawan tak pernah dilihat
Wajah gembira sepanjang hayat
Kaulah matahari kaulah bulan
Kaulah cahaya mengatasi cahaya
Kaulah rahsia hidup mulia
Kaulah obor menyuluh jiwa
Wahai kekasihku wahai Muhammad
Wahai pengantin indah sejagat
Wahai nabi dijulang puja
Wahai imam dua kiblat
Bahagialah orang pandang wajahmu
Wahai penghulu keturunan mulia
Kolam airmu sejuk jernih
Kunjungi kami hari akhirat
Sepanjang malam unta berjalan
Tiada berhenti rindukan tuan
Engkau dipayung awan putih
Para malaikat sama selawat
Allah mengetahui rahsia sulit
Dialah penyahut semua seruan
Wahai Tuhan rahmatilah kami
Dengan segala amal soleh
Selawat Allah ke atas Muhammad
Sebanyak baris kertas ditulis
Ahmad Muhammad penunjuk jalan
Ampun wajah berseri menawan

Oh Tuhan! Cucurilah rahmat ke atas nabi, salam berkat.

kalah pun tak apa...

2011-02-13T23:16:00.001+08:00

lenguh

and sure enough... after the 1pismp team managed to humiliate us with 6 goals...

takpelah. minggu depan masih ada.
kalah bermaruah.

Al-Ma'tsurat Sughra

2011-02-09T22:02:00.000+08:00

yesterday Kak Mira (Amira Afiqah) held a quiz for us; her 'daughters' in our small group of 'halaqah' (or we called it as 'ta'lim'). she divided the eight of us (usually only seven - Afina lives in the C block, pretty far to come to A block at night) and made us compete. she will call us one by one, asks a question related to any of the topics we've discussed during our 'ta'lim' sessions and if the asked member manages to answer correctly, the group will receive five points. if the member asked for help from her group members, the group will receive four points. however, if the whole group could not answer it, the opposite group could take a shot and if they can answer correctly, they will receive three points.

after the quiz, we (or Kak Mira) called it a tie and Kak Mira gave all of us the same gifts; a bag of snacks and a small book of Al-Ma'tsurat Sughra.

this is not the first time i met these collection of Prophet Muhammad PBUH daily 'zikr' and 'doa' but i did not felt like i should/want to practice it. up until Kak Mira gave us one book of it last night.

so i google-d it and found out its benefits. (credit: thank you Melangkah Terus)

PENGERTIAN DAN KEUTAMAAN AL-MA'THURAT

1. Al- Ma'thurat merupakan wirid dan doa harian yang diamalkan oleh Rasulullah SAW. Baginda adalah orang yang paling mengetahui betapa besarnya ganjaran yang diperolehi dari amalan doa dan wirid tersebut...

2. Wirid, doa, zikir dan istighfar dalam Al- Ma'thurat ini akan memantapkan jiwa di samping memiliki keutamaan dalam segala aspek kehidupan. Mendidik hati agar sentiasa merindui kepada Ilahi dan memberi kelapangan hidup dan kesihatan jasmani...

3. Bagi seorang muslim masanya tidak berlalu begitu saja. Dikala pagi dan petang ia sentiasa bertasbih, istighfar, tahmid dan berdoa kepada Allah dengan zikir yang ma'thur ( yg berasal daripada Nabi SAW )...

4. Jika sesiapa mengamalkan zikir Al- Ma'thurat ini akan merasakan perbezaannya dengan hari2 yang tidak dimulakan dengan zikir Al- Ma'thurat. Begitulah kekuatan doa2 dan wirid dalam Al- Ma'thurat ini sebagai senjata mukmin...

Beramallah sesuai dengan ajaran Islam, isitu seperti yang diamalkan oleh Rasulullah SAW. Orang2 mukmin yg sejati akan mengisi ruang masanya dengan berbagai amalan dan ibadah yang akan mendekatkan dirinya dengan Allah SWT. Bibirnya sentiasa basah dalam berzikir, membesarkan dan mengagungkan Allah Yang Maha Mulia, kemudian berdoa untuk mengharapkan keredhaan Rabb. Tiada sesuati yang lebih beerti dlm kehidupan seorang insan melainkan mendapatkan keredhaan Allah...

Setiap individu baik sebagai pemimpin dalam rumah tangga, masyarakat dan negara serta para pendakwah hendaklah mengamalkan dan menghayati zikir Al-Ma'thurat dengan membaca zikir2 yang diamalkan oleh Rasulullah ini beerti kita telah membentengi diri kita dengan senjata yg kukuh, sehingga terhindar dari gangguan syaitan yang terkutuk.

Oleh sebab itu Al- Syahid Imam Hassan Al Banna telah membina jalan yang baik untuk mengikut sunnah Rasulullah SAW. Beliau telah memilih dan menyusun al- Ma'thurat dgn mengharapkan bimbingan daripada Allah SWT agar terhindar daripada gangguan syaitan yang penuh angkara murka. Maka alangkah baik setiap diri muslim mengamalkan zikir al-Ma'thurat ini pada setiap pagi dan petang, siang dan malam.

Al- Ma'thurat dimulai dengan ucapan " Aku bermohon perlindungan Allah, Maha Mendengar, Maha Mengetahui dari setiap syaitan yang direjam" , mengandungi erti bahawa setiap jiwa kita sebelum melakukan aktiviti harus menyerahkan diri kepadaNya. Ucapan itu juga menunjukkan betapa besarnya harapan seorang hamba kepada Allah, kemudian berusaha untuk terhindar dari sesuatu yang dapat menyesatkan jiwa seseorang dari mengingat Allah...

Bacaan dan zikir yang terkandung dalam zikir Al-Ma'thurat terdapat beberapa keutamaan yang dijanjikan oleh Allah SWT terhadap utusanNya Nabi Muhamaad SAW. Hanya insan yang mengetahui betapa besarnya nilai doa dalam kehidupan jiwa sehingga menghayati dan mengamalkannya dalam kehidupan sehari.

Kelebihan membaca Al Mathurat:
1. Tidak dihampiri syaitan
2. Rumah dan keluarganya terselemat dari perkara yang tidak diingini.
3. Allah mencukupkannya apa yang sangat diperlukan dari urusan dunia dan akhirat.
4. Orang yang membacanya kemudian dia mati pada hari atau malam tersebut maka Allah akan menjamin untuknya syurga.
5. Selamat dari segala sesuatu.
6. Allah menyempurnakan nikmatnya ke atas orang yang membacanya.
7. Allah berhak untuk meredhainya
8. Tidak ada sesuatu yang mendatangkan mudarat ke atasnya.
9. Terhindar daripada syirik.
10. Selamat dari bisa atau sengatan semua makhluk yang beracun.
11. Dimudahkan menyelesaikan hutang-hutang.
12. Berhak untuk mendapat syafaat pada hari kiamat.
13. Sesiapa yang membaca di waktu pagi,akan dipelihara oleh allah hingga ke waktu petang.Dan sesiapa yang membacanya di waktu petang akan dipelihara hingga ke waktu pagi.
14.Mengamalkannya umpama mengamalkan Sunnah Rasulullah dari sudut zikir dan berdoa, dan berbagai lagi kelebihan.

Kredit: IluvIslam.com dan www.hatikering.wordpress.com

..the above blog 'pun' take the info from other blogs. it's okay-lah.. - "ilmu tanpa amal ibarat pokok tidak berbuah"=)

10. Yunus

2011-02-08T21:04:00.000+08:00

Jika kamu berpaling (dari peringatanku),
aku tidak meminta upah sedikitpun daripadamu. Upahku tidak lain hanyalah
Allah belaka, dan aku disuruh supaya aku
termasuk golongan orang-orang yang
berserah diri (kepada-Nya)

.

- Surah Yunus, ayat 72.

why not dating first baru kawen?

2011-02-07T20:42:00.002+08:00

just read a fascinating article from http://www.fatalerr012.com/?works=why-not-dating-dulu-baru-kahwin#top. i seriously wanna thank the author but i'm not sure what his/her name is.

anyway. below is the article. it's just really good i need to post it here. i just hope the author won't be mad at me.

There is a glossary at the end of this article on certain scientific terms and Malay terms which may help the reader to understand the article better.

When you hear about “kahwin dulu, baru dating“, probably in your mind you will be thinking about a guy with a kopiah 24 hours on his head marrying a girl who wears the tudung labuh or even a niqaab, better known as purdah at Malaysia. Your first instinct will also probably be, “I pray, I fast, I wear tudung, but I am not these extreme ‘alim people. I need to get to know my partner for life inside out. So, I need to date him, to know whether we are serasi or not.” I perfectly understand your concern. I understand that you are not ‘crazy’ enough to just jump into a marriage without knowing who your partner really is. So in the end, this kahwin dulu baru dating trend becomes an exclusive thing among people who are active in dakwah and jemaah, while the muslim masses are walking together holding hands or ‘hanging out’ at restaurants at KLCC, Mid Valley, etc. Some of these people are perhaps incurable, but I believe some just don’t get how kahwin dulu baru dating can actually work. I will try my best to show you that kahwin dulu baru dating actually works, and romantic love is hogwash in supposedly spotting the ideal partner for a long-lasting marriage.

Firstly, I have heard about people mocking about those who had successful marriage through matchmake as just being ‘lucky’. To set the record straight, according to National Geographic, the divorce rate of the Western world which embraces total romantic love is around 50 to 60% – a healthy percentage indeed! So, even if you start your marriage with romantic love, the probability for it to last until death-do-you-apart is less than half. I would like to call upon those ardent defenders of romantic love to pause for awhile and enjoy this statistics before proceeding to conjure some pseudo theories about the advantages of having romantic love – you can’t fool the figures. I would say that the western society has 1001 flaws in keeping a safe household and those ‘other factors’ surely contribute to the statistics, but the fact still remain that romantic love fails to spot these people’s partner for life. According to a study done by Utusan Malaysia, our country also has a divorce rate of 54% and our society is practically westernised with majority embracing romantic love – although maybe not the type that ends up on the bed. So it’s the same old story, statistics wise.

Some people say we need to know whether we have ‘chemistry’ through countless dates, hang outs, and spending a lot of time together. Going through a person’s ‘CV’, peer opinion or recommendation, observing her/him in public, and a brief get-to-know session are just not enough. We know that during this courting period, everyone pijak semut pon tak mati, and you will always forgive your partner’s shortcoming no matter how big they are, simply because you are madly in love. How many times have we heard about glitch-free Pakwe 1.0 who eventually turned into Husband 1.0 with lots of viruses and trojan horses? Also note that I am not saying go into a marriage with someone you know you don’t like, but I am saying you don’t need these romantic craps to know a person through and through. The fact is you won’t really know a person unless you live, eat, and sleep with him or her. I wonder how Amazon.com can make big bucks, if everyone really insists in browsing through a book before buying it. Worst still, this book has a lot of pages written in magic invisible ink that will only show up after you buy it! So you never really know what you are buying.

What if good reviews, high-praise critics, and best sellers are not enough for one to make a decision to buy a book? I admit that drawing an analogy between life partner with a book just doesn’t make sense at all. Let’s get scientific. So what really is this thing called love? Anthropologist Helen Fisher, a professor at Rutgers University, has conducted an extensive research on the biochemical pathways of love in all its manifestations: lust, romance, attachment, the way they start and wane, etc. Here is part of what her research is about: “After doing MRI on the brain of two lovers – they had been ‘madly in love’ for seven months during that time – she found out that parts of brain linked up to reward and pleasure – the ventral segmental area and the caudate nucleus- lit up. What excited Fisher most was not so much finding a location, an address, for love as tracing its specific chemical pathways. Love lights up the caudate nucleus because it is home to a dense spread of receptors for a neurotransmitter called dopamine, which Fisher came to think of as part of our own endogenous love potion. In the right proportions, dopamine creates intense energy, exhilaration, focused attention, and motivation to win rewards.

It is why, when you are newly in love, you can stay up all night, watch the sun rise, run a race, ski fast down a slope ordinarily too steep for your skill. Love makes you bold, makes you bright, makes you run real risks, which you sometimes survive, and sometimes you don’t.” [The Chemistry of Love, National Geographic]

Sounds familiar? Mind you that mentally-ill people also shows high amount of dopamine in their brain, and scientists cannot tell apart one who is mentally-ill and one who is ‘madly in love’ by just MRIing their brains. Cool, right? The meaning of ‘madly in love’ is more real than what we think of, as the brain chemistry of infatuation is indeed akin to mental illness. Tak heran la, pijak semut pon tak mati, lautan api pon akan ku redah, dan gunung tinggi mana pon akan ku daki. Do you think an orang gila can make a sound judgement? The fact is, when you are in deep romantic obsession, you just want to win rewards from your partner due to the excessive dopamines, not objectively finding faults in him or her as you claim. Of course nobody is perfect, there is no point in finding every fault in your partner, and supposedly marriage is about reconciling differences and accepting the fact that your partner is another human being, inescapable from making mistakes. What I am stressing here is that dating and hanging out are for mere pleasures, not finding the right partner. How can something that is similar to mental-illness becomes a reliable way to make your decision of a lifetime? So am I still not convincing? Let’s hear further what Dr. Helen Fischer has to say about the chemistry of love:-

The meaning of ‘madly in love’ is more real than what we think of, as the brain chemistry of infatuation is indeed akin to mental illness.“Most scientist who studied love, divide it into three segments: lust, romantic obsession, and attachment. The first stage of it which is lust which is actually the sex drive. One of the things that men like about women is their waist to hip ratio, which according to scientists, the desirable waist to hip ratio is point seven. Women are attracted to man with broad shoulders and rugged features, all showing a great deal of testosterone. The second stage of love is romantic passion, and the same chemicals are involved when a person is in love is when they are high on Amphetamine [dopamine stimulus] , and the scientists are speculating that it ends after about four years, and that’s because that is the amount of time that it takes for a human baby to become ‘viable’. And two things happen, either the couple separate or they stay together in long term relationship. That third stage is called attachment and there is a different chemical in brain that is involved in a long-term relationship, which is called oxytocin, and that causes one to feel very calm and soothe. Emily and Brian of Ohio had been married for 60 years and have twenty children. They were to me sort of perfect example of this long-term relationship attachment.” [The Chemistry of Love, National Geographic]

So, according to scientists, this romantic passion can only last at maximum for four years, but they don’t quite know why yet – biology is always vague. Some say that the human body just can’t stand the state of high in dopamine for so long because it deteriorates the body, while some gave the theory that four years is the maximum time span for a couple to have their first baby, so they need to get ’serious’. Whatever it is, no wonder a lot of people complain that their once glitch-free Pakwe 1.0 turned into Husband 1.0 with lots of viruses and trojan horses. Another thing to point out is that couples who are in long-term relationship show high amount of oxytocin in their brains, which is a totally different chemical from dopamine. Oxytocin is also present when you have good relationships with your parents, brothers, sisters, and friends. So what makes a relationship last long is this feeling of attachment to your partner like you have for your parents, friends, and family, not the romantic passion during courtship. It is interesting to note that oxytocin causes one to feel very calm and soothe, while dopamine creates intense energy, exhilaration, focused attention, and motivation to win rewards. There is no similarity at all between these two chemicals; in fact, their purposes are actually the opposite to each other. So only a fool would think that romantic passion is the mechanism that should be used to find a suitable partner. It is like trying to use a hammer to cut your finger nail.

“And those who say: “Our Lord! Bestow on us from our wives and our offspring the comfort of our eyes, and make us leaders of those who have Taqwa.” [Qur'an 25:74]

Is qurrota a’yun (comfort of our eyes) mentioned in the Qur’an, the feeling of calm and soothe (triggered by oxytocin) that is presence when a relationship is based on attachment? Finally, let’s listen to what Jody Cobb, the photographer of National Geographic magazine who wrote the article The Chemistry of Love, has to say about her impossible task: Photographing love:-

“I didn’t want to just photograph weddings, that I think is what is expected. I didn’t want to do a valentine, I didn’t want to do a hallmark card. The notion of love because anyone who has ever really been in love knows that, that’s not the reality. So I was very much interested to show real life and cultures all over the world. And women are becoming educated and wanting to make their own choices in mate selection, things are changing really fast. And just like in the West, where we truly believe in love and romance and happily ever after, we still have a 50-60% divorce rate.” [The Chemistry of Love, National Geographic]

It is pretty clear now that dating dulu baru kahwin doesn’t come even close to ensure a happily-ever-after relationship. Ironically, those ‘extreme ‘alim people’ are the ones who understand real love and real life, not those Casanovas. Do note that I am not saying if you kahwin baru baru dating then your marriage will last forever, but if you dating dulu baru kahwin then you are doom to failure. I am simply pointing out that romantic passion has nothing to do about spoting the ‘right person’ in your life. It is also true that incompatibility may happen between two persons, like there is just no chemistry between the two of you. The point is, you don’t need to go on countless hang outs to spot that. You don’t need to overload your neuropathways with excessive dopamine to find the supposedly elusive chemistry. It is common sense: You sit down and talk with a person for 15 minutes and you’ll know whether you can get along with that person or not. I am talking in general, meaning even with a stranger who you want to make him as your friend, not just your life partner. As for the opposite gender, more than that, it is the evil desire from your nafs. Of course, if you are still in doubt, go through the person’s ‘CV’, find peer opinion or recommendation about that person, observe her/him in public, and so on and so forth, as long as it is according to the syariah. Whatever you do, don’t get mentally-ill. In the end, you still have to ride all the gelora after the romantic passion dies out and you dah kahwin – Husband 1.0 and Wife 1.0. Last piece of advice: Ride them with oxytocin, not dopamine, ok? Above all, bring along taqwa, inshaAllah it will be pretty smooth sailing.

Scientific terms:
Neurotransmitters – are chemicals that are used to relay, amplify and modulate electrical signals between a neuron (brain/nervous system cells) and another cell.

Dopamine – Dopamine is a neurotrasmitter and it has many functions in the brain. Most importantly, dopamine is central to the reward system. Dopamine is commonly associated with the pleasure system of the brain, providing feelings of enjoyment and reinforcement to motivate a person proactively to perform certain activities. Dopamine is released by naturally rewarding experiences such as food and sex. Disruption to the dopamine system has also been strongly linked to psychosis and schizoprenia, with abnormally high dopamine action apparently leading to these conditions. Now you can see the link between sex/romantic passion and psychosis.

Oxytocin – Oxytocin is a mamalian hormone that also acts as a neurotransmitter in the brain. In the brain, oxytocin is involved in social recognition and bonding, and might be involved in the formation of trust between people. Oxytocin is also an important hormone for women for various reasons, but in this article I am focusing on the function of oxytocin in the brain.

MRI – MRI stands for Magnetic resonance imaging, which is a non-invasive method used to render images of the inside of an object. In this particular case, it is used to render images inside of the brain.

Malay terms:
kahwin dulu baru dating – A loose translation would be: Marriage first, only then comes dating.
dating dulu baru kawhin – A loose translation would be: Dating first, only then comes marriage
tudung – hijab or head scarve
serasi – compatible
pijak semut pon tak mati – Literally it means: Even if you step on an ant, the ant won’t die.
What it actually means is someone who control his behavior to give a false, good impression during dating.
pakwe – boyfriend

References:
1. Slater, Lauren. The Chemistry of Love. National Geographic Magazine, February 2006

2. Fisher, Helen. Why We Love: The Nature and Chemistry of Romantic Love. Henry Holt and Company, 2004.

up north to... Pennsylvania?

2011-02-05T23:02:00.000+08:00

just finished unstoppable starring denzel washington, chris pine and rosario dawson. my classmate was actually the one that asked me to ~~download~~, i mean watch, the movie. see, thriller, horror, and those categories that fall into similar genres, those types of movies are really not my kind of movie - unless everyone survive without a scratch. yeah, yeah unreal i get it but that's what i go to the movies for - to get away from reality. say whatever you want.

anyway, this movie ends happily with will(pine) got only minor injuries. so this is my kind of movie. i was, literally screaming when will was lost from the heli's visual. but all's well that end's well. when all the screaming, gasping, sighing, shouting and ~~cursing~~ tell-off-ing were done, i was very happy when darcy came to the scene and (obviously) forgave will and his over-the-top jealousy. yes. i'm a hopeless romantic. especially in movies.

regarding the title:
1. today i headed back to the place where all the 'tela'ah's take place which is up north from where i actually originated from. so up north is actually to besut, not pennsylvania.
2. northern pennsylvania is where the runaway-train original station before will and frank(washington) tried to stop it by using counter-force method.

credit pic: blog.80millionmoviesfree.com

"green 'bee' sounds kinda lame."

2011-02-03T20:17:00.000+08:00

i watched the green hornet starring seth rogan, jay chou, cameron diaz and christoph waltz with my sis at mesra mall tgv today. and it was fun (since it was the first time watching movie in a cinema with my sis, i didn't know that it was a lot more fun - because we both screamed at pointless scenes. haha^^)

i am not one to kiss and tell because:
a. i have never done the above (except harmless pecks on the cheeks of my girls)
b. in this case, what i meant was i don't watch and tell.

so go to the nearest cinema and get dizzy with the noble albeit unorthodox heroes; the green hornet and his sidekick. which remain nameless (as in, sidekick's name. they kept calling him "it's the green hornet's sidekick!") throughout the movie. btw, jay chou was cute. total asian heartthrob.

p/s:
dear anonymous, if i could help it, we can actually meet up tomorrow. but i don't want to because:
a. i don't go out with liars.
b. i don't go out with smokers.
c. i don't go out with a smoker who is also liar.
unless you clear up one or two or all of these proven facts, au revoir. and even that, let's leave it to fate to do the job.

terima kasih, thank you, arigato gozaimasu, merci, tausend dank..etc

2011-01-29T23:05:00.001+08:00

and it doesn't seem enough.

in 2009, when i came back from Perak without the trophy as an ASAT public speaking champion (because i didn't win), nobody spare me a glance. it's like the place (SMC) used to having speakers to go to national level in any competition. and i honestly didn't care - because yeah, i didn't win.

but she didn't think so. she obviously thought it was a cool achievement. she called me upon her, asked me about the competition (to which i weakly replied i didn't won) and shook my hand so hard my whole body shook to congratulate me.

you see, when i was busy with the competition (district, state and national level), some of the teachers thought i was a liability for the student body. i was a prefect but because of a few months of neglecting prefect's duty because of the competition, i wasn't promoted the next year. all my hard work as a prefect for three years went to waste. because it didn't even state in the cert. that i was a prefect when i left the place. one thing in high school which i regret the most.

she made me think that what i did matters. when i thought it wasn't.

i know you can hear me because when i was in standard four, a teacher once said to me:

"if you du'a for your departed parents, the du'a don't even went up to Allah. it'll go straight to your loved ones."

you're not my parent but you certainly feel like one. please forgive us of every single deed or word we ever did or said that wasn't in your best interest. you opened our eyes that science and religion really never did part but will always be together and there is so much more out there to be experienced thus go, fly and reach for the highest sky.

Al-Fatihah for Cikgu Norharyati bt. Din.

forgive n forget

2011-01-29T20:36:00.000+08:00

okay, seriously? this is me annoyed. anonymous 1: i don't know how i can work with you if that thing ever become serious. i forgive - all the time. cause it's the thing to do, more mature, wise thing to do. but i never forget. all my friends know that and you my friend, it is high time you know that. i forgive after it is done - cause, granted he was evil and had less ball than a woman does, macbeth had it right. what's done is done. but i never forget. it's a condition every woman is born with. and you've use my forgiveness once, alright? you didn't know it but i've forgiven you, you most certainly didn't have to know. and you might even have a shot of not knowing it at all. but things has change. and you can't be forgiven if you are still doing the thing that makes me feel so mad at you. maybe because it's like bros before hos. in this case, maybe sis before s-o-*itch. anonymous 2: you are s-o-*itch. that's right. didn't have the ball to said it - not until pushed. and seriously, we are ~~related~~? i seriously, highly doubt that. maybe by very far distance and some ancient history. oh, and i should care about those people that i somehow have to see at least once a year because of our ~~blood~~? well guess what? i don't care anymore because you said it yourself; they cut their tongue with the scissors of Hell because they give advice to people whereas they themselves did not follow. and you also lied to me - that, or you just didn't understand my malay. which is not my fault because you obviously didn't understand my english too. and dude, i only speak two languages. i don't speak your district dialect because: a) i can if i want to, but i think your district dialect is just plain stupid. b) last time i check, that district is still in the state where i come from but i wonder why the people were/are speaking like we're in the other state. c) i am so proud of the state that i originated from. and i know for a fact you people don't. so go ahead and get wasted. you deserved that much.

out of the picture

2011-01-29T17:12:00.003+08:00

it's personal

2011-01-26T21:20:00.000+08:00

kf said,

"Siti Khadijah pon bgtaw nabi Muhammad jugak. jgn lupe."

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that is so very true i can't deny it one bit.

and because i am currently studying macbeth;

what's done is done.

worth

2011-01-26T19:31:00.000+08:00

fb had enough of my pics. i hope blogger wouldn't disappoint me.

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but unfortunately, my modem seems to hate me. i'll just go home and switch to wireless.
(but the above is one of my best pictures. i'll upload more later.)

when they say

2011-01-25T19:55:00.001+08:00

i kind of blurbed. sort of.

didn't mean to say anything. honestly. if i did want to say something i would've said the name. but i kept my patient (and biting my lips) and i survived the torture of them trying to get the name out of my mouth.

they further tortured me by guessing the correct name. but i hope my poker face was good enough. or at least, not bad that the correct name would soon fly out of their thoughts.

to make the blatant attempt to make me speak seemed endless, they said that i'm not good enough - if indeed the correct name was the correct name. which they did not know, was.

i am not trying to make anyone understand this post. but if you're reading this ~~and know the person of the said correct name~~, you might say the same thing. and for the time being, i honestly couldn't care less.

one last time~

2011-01-23T14:53:00.000+08:00

one last time.
i didn't know.
it was pouring -
as if nature knew
that i won't make it
for
one last time.

during lighter days,
advices, smile and cherishes,
as a Tok will always do.
taking it for granted -
like a Cucu i am
(Allah forgive me)

and i didn't know.
rushing through lightning cars,
i didn't make it for the last time.

Al-Fatihah.

Flavour

2011-01-22T14:38:00.000+08:00

i think i haven't reviewed Salt.

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not that i have much to say about it. and it's not a new movie but if you haven't watched it, then i'd say there are a certain number of films in this world worth watching and with angie on board, it's a worth-watching movie.

i've been exposed enough times with the cia and nsa agents (*cough* chuck *cough*) and i know the idea that these agents are hardcore, unmoved like walls and trained in the art of espionage - as how evelyn salt (angelina jolie) was in the movie.

but when the russian revolution team headed by orlov (daniel olbrychski) decided to kill salt's husband, mike krause (august diehl), they have crossed a line they didn't know salt had. krause meant the world for salt because he went all the way to save salt from north korea's army torture once. a knight-like act like that, would melt any lady's heart - even a female cia agent.

so salt went from double-cross to triple-cross (haha^^) and then she was a cia agent again and who knows what happened when she escaped from the helicopter into the icy ocean? unless we have Salt 2 that is. happy watching.

moral: don't cross a woman with training in tactical attack and close combat. she'll kill you. (i'm a future teacher now. everything has to have a moral^^)

credit: blog.zap2it.com

practically am embarrassing myself. dot.

2011-01-17T23:32:00.001+08:00

I like someone again. I know, I know. Even I couldn’t say it to myself anymore (because of the huge number of collision I’ve had) but who is it that I’m trying to lie to? Myself. Of course.

It was not official. (okay, in the cases of me liking someone, I have to tell it to my closest friends because it only feels real then.) I have only told Ac, which is compulsory. But no one
from IP yet. Not telling because:

a. I haven’t met anyone as trustworthy as Ac. (well yes that fact is debatable but she is my bff)
b. I don’t want to because it’s one thing to tell Ac, it’s another to tell to my newfound friends in IP. Besides, they might have a bad news to deliver if I tell them. Bad news like, he has a gf? Haha. So not knowing means I can still pretend he’s single – even if I’m dying to know if he is.
c. I am still an 18-year-old girl with no mature views of life. (and Ac said this too. I’m not mature enough yet? Is maturity compulsory for me to try to jump into a relationship? – ok, the phrase “jump” was already a dead giveaway)

Okay I should stop before I give anymore dead giveaway. Cause I would like to avoid that. Liking him this bad makes it even harder to perform in class – even more than usual.

*There is one way, I think to find out if I’m ready for this kind of stuff. My sis cried for her bf all the time. Maybe it’s time I test that theory.

welcome back, young jedi.

2011-01-15T21:23:00.004+08:00

okay, i did not just watch star wars. seriously. can't understand them at all. the young jedi bit was from gossip girl when dan's dad, rufus told that to dan.

so today was an eventful returning from home to the campus. while we (me and my sis) were facing it, she kept telling me that i should put this in my blog so that i will always remember not to bet only on the usual time but make space for unexpected events. like, for instance, the leaders (a certain ~~dsai~~ and his entourage) of the opposing alliance coming to Kemaman (i knew i should've read the date on the flying banners).

let me start over.

it was stated on my ticket that i am supposed to be on-board at 10.30am. due to my went to sleep late last night, my Ma let me sleep in a few more hours in the morning after Subuh just to avoid a case of me missing my stop at Jerteh and go straight to KB. which we don't need. so i woke up at 9.00am, had my breakfast and shower. by 10.00am, i was ready to go. but my sis, who wanted to send me to the bus station, was running a little late so at 10.15am, we were still in BK. which was suck if we want to catch my bus.

in normal situation, by 10.20am we should already reach at least SMKSIs (there are 2 and they are side-by-side. don't ask me why) but sure enough, today was nothing but unusual. by snail's speed, we reached the bus station in Geliga at about 10.45am - 15min later than the time i was supposed to board my bus.

but no trans in sight. i ran to the ticket-counter and asked the 'pakcik' in-charge.

"KB dok naik sini. naik kat Risda."

i was about to explode to him that i board one trans to Besut at that exact terminal a few months ago. but i kept my calm and ran back to my sis. sure she was mad because:

a. the ticket clearly stated the place to board was Hentian Risda.
b. my brother, who bought the ticket for me, told me that the place to board was Risda.
c. my father, who had tonnes of experiences of sending his kids up north on a bus, know for a fact that the place to board was Risda and in fact, had told my mother that to tell me that.
d. i had, based on my experience months ago, told my sis to send me all the way to the Geliga station.
e. there were throngs of a certain opposing political parties' supporters just flooded the Geliga station which made our way back to Risda was, again, like a snail who just had a big lunch.

anyway~ we made it to Risda. but was a tad too late. i was on the verge of tears when a man at the bus stop told me that i just missed the bus. seeing my eyes going red perhaps, that man encouraged me to chase the bus. i told him thank you and went back into my sis' car. we talked, she told me to call Ma and so i did. then Ma, a very smart woman, told us to call the bus company. i guess it was my lucky day. the usual ticket wouldn't have the company's operation office's number stamped on the ticket but mine had. so we called the office, the office gave us the driver's number and so we called. my sis talked to them actually, i was numb and could not literally, spoke properly. we convinced (well, she did) the bus driver to drive a bit slower because we were trying to catch up with it.

the bus eventually stopped at the Masjid Meraga Beris to wait for me to catch up. the driver was annoyed, but the fact that he actually stopped and waited were more than enough. i don't need him to smile. i just needed his help. thank you, 'pakcik' in red uniform. and the other 'pakcik' too, for driving fast enough that i reached Jerteh at ample time for me to perform Zuhur.

from Jerteh, i hitched a ride with my classmate to get to our 'maktab' in Kg. Raja. i was so thankful that i am determined, i should treat that classmate sometime. taxi would've cost me RM20 - an amount which i could not just spend lavishly for a ride. allowance'll be a bit late.

so basically, i have 4 people to say thanks to:
1. my sis. thank you so much for having the patient to drive all the way to Geliga and then went back and straight to Kijal because i was wrong. thank you.
2. the 'pakcik' drivers of Transnasional bus company for today's route Kemaman-Kota Bharu. had it not been for you, i sure had to face a lot of scolding today. not just from my sis.
3. my classmate (who shall remain anonymous) for picking me up in Jerteh. or else my fund would be running lower than it already is.

moral of the story -> if your bus is due at 10.30, go out at 10.15 and make sure you have the driver's number at hand. it'll be fun.

^the said ticket. see the red stamp? my precious.

fever everywhere

2011-01-12T22:27:00.000+08:00

i think it's a virus. grab a H1N1 mask everyone. it's open sesame..eh2.. open season. to my fevering friends, good luck.

no matter

2010-12-30T19:49:00.001+08:00

it does not matter if u have a fever,

or a headache,

or even, facing both traumatic diarrhea and extreme vomiting,

u have just got to put on a brave face of pink healthiness and watch the game. it was worth it.

(i know, i know. i should've post this before the game. but what can i do? i was all of the above. except maybe i am still in the 'am' tense, not 'was' tense.)

add some spice, don't despise;)

2010-12-11T22:19:00.003+08:00

it is really, really GOOD. for those of us who need a few shots of laughter in our lives, this movie is for you.

so hurry and go to the nearest dvd store, borrow from a friend or just download from the internet by torrent. make sure it had DvDRip at the tail of the title. not that i download movies using torrent. that would be mean. i support our filming industries. that dvdrip stuff just a tip i received from a friend. oh, another tip; avoid using broadband modem when downloading movies. it'll just drive ur modem nuts later. no, not crazy. just going at snail-speed. not that the broadband-speed at the campus was not already slow. try use streamyx. home-line. that's better.

p/s: i really like those minions. they're (and i am not a girl who usually tries to always be in touch with her feminine sides) VERY cute. i also like the girls; margo, edith and agnes. especially edith. and steve carell accent. some quirks are just worth mentioning.

sehari dalam kuliah, lama-lama jadi pandai

2010-11-07T23:38:00.010+08:00

Kesukaan menulis itu tidak pernah ditinggalkan. Biarpun menumpu dalam pengajian bahasa sekarang, menulis seenaknya seperti zaman sekolahnya pernah membenarkan, tidak terjadi lagi. Masuk sahaja usianya 18 tahun tepat 1.32 petang 16 Jun yang lalu, ayah tidak berkira-kira lagi untuk membelikannya sebuah ASUS siri A. Sejak itu, tulisannya (yang memang sekian waktu dikutuk oleh kak cik dan abang uda sebagai buruk) bertambah teruk dan menyakitkan mata kondisinya. Tetapi, keinginan hatinya untuk menulis selalu ada dan meluap-luap apabila memandang helaian-helaian putih yang bergaris tetapi kosong. Bukanlah dia tidak menulis lagi dan telah menjadi ulat buku yang ulung dalam kelas seramai 37 orang itu, tapi mungkin lebih sesuai disebut menaip – di laman blognya.

Sebelum kelas Emotional Intelligence (Kecerdasan Emosi) hari Ahad itu, sahabat sekelasnya Saddly (sebut: Sadli) datang dengan harapan dia boleh membantunya membina laman blog sendiri. Keterujaan Saddly untuk mulai menaip kepada dunia membuatkan dia tersentak sedikit. Dia masih mengemaskini blognya, semakin kerap sekarang kerana dia sudah ada cik teruntum – ASUS itulah, namun ‘hantu’ menulis yang pernah bertahun-tahun merasuk mungkin sudah menemui ‘tuan’ baharu. Saddly itulah, mungkin. Sampai orang suruh dia hantar karya ke majalah Cakna (majalah IPG) yang mahal (sampai RM20 seorang kena bayar) itupun dia menolak. Bukan dia tidak mahu, tetapi dia sudah tidak ada karya baharu. Dia sudah lama tidak menulis hakikatnya!

Dia jadi kelu. Dalam kelas EI pun dia jadi bisu. Bukanlah bermakna dia mulut murai dalam kelas EI itu sebelum ini – dia antara pelajar yang akan jadi ‘tikus’ apabila Mr. K (gelaran mereka sekelas untuk Encik Kamarudin daripada Jabatan Ilmu Pendidikan) mulai menyoal pelajar-pelajar – tetapi kelas yang itu dia tidak terasa hendak cakap apa-apa pun. Intelligence (IQ), personality and emotional intelligence (EQ) are distinct qualities we all possess. Together they determine how we think and act. It is impossible to predict one based upon another. People may be intelligent but not emotionally intelligent, and people of all types of personalities can be high in IQ and/or EQ. Of the three, emotional intelligence is the only quality that is flexible and able to change. Bosan, tetapi dia sedang belajar perlahan-lahan menyukai EI.

Dewan kuliah Al-Farabi yang tersangat sejuk itu menghantar ingatan dia kepada selimut corak garis-garis kuning dan merah jambu, bantal IPG yang keras dan bantal ‘I Love You Forever’ yang lembut dan gebu hadiah kak cik untuk hari lahirnya yang ke 17. Seronoknya! Selalu waktu-waktu sudah petang begini, semester juga sudah mahu berakhir minggu hadapan, kelas sudah tidak ada lagi. Tetapi Mr. K lain macamlah pula semangat beliau hari ini. Ikraam sampai sudah mengulang-ulang silap menyebut ‘across’. Mengantuk agaknya. Hujan cuma renyai di luar tetapi barangkali cuaca musim tengkujuh yang sudah menjelma dan pendingin hawa yang bekerja keras menyebabkan semua orang seakan beku. Dia pula sengaja tinggalkan sweater nipis hitam kegemarannya di bilik pagi tadi. Sejuknya.

“What’s the time now?” Soal Mr. K. Soalan lazim.

“3.40,” jawab beberapa orang. Joseph yang yang biasa menjaga masa tidak hadir.

“Okay. What are the transformations that has take place after you undergo this Emotion Intelligence program, Al-Kas…, Al-Samihah?” Soal Mr. K lagi. Satu kelas tersengih mendengar Mr. K hamper tersilap memanggil ‘Al-Kasmahani’ (di mana nama Kasmahani tidak mempunyai ‘Al’ di hadapan – itu nama Al-Samihah Amni)

Akhirnya kelas berakhir dan dia sudah boleh lepas bebas dari dewan yang membuatkan darah berlari ke jantung dan membiarkan jari-jemari kesejukan. Rupa-rupanya di luar juga, hujan mulai melebatkan dan suasana tidaklah terlalu lebih panas daripada situasi beku di dalam dewan tadi.

“It’s raining,” ujarnya. Yin mengangguk di sebelah. Najiah sekadar sunyi.

“Awak nak pergi kafe tak, Yin?” Tanya Najiah. Dia senyap, turut ingin mendengar jawapan Yin. Amoi Penang itu tiba-tiba sibuk dengan Sony Ericsonnya.

“Tak naklah. Malas. Nak masuk bilik aje,” katanya ala-ala manja. Walhal Yin memang lenggok cakapnya begitu, namun dia tetap merasakan Yin bercakap seperti kemanja-manjaan.

Untuk ke Blok A, mereka harus melalui Blok C dan Blok B dahulu. Dengan itu, mereka tidaklah basah ditimpa hujan yang makin galak menyiram bumi Besut. Semacam menari-nari dan penuh suka sekali titisan-titisan hujan turun petang itu. Dia memang suka subjek English Studies (Kajian Bahasa Inggeris) kerana dia kini mengaplikasi personafikasi – memberi sifat manusia kepada benda bukan hidup – di mana-mana. Dahulu di Tingkatan Lima pun dia tidak pernah suka perkara-perkara seperti metafora, simile sampai begini.

“Saya nak beli rotilah. Lapar pulak hujan-hujan maçam ni,” katanya tiba-tiba.

“Jadi awak nak pergi ko-op lah ni?” Soal Najiah.

“Ya,” balasnya sepatah. Yin masih tekun, membalas SMS mungkin.

Untuk ke kafe atau ko-op, mereka perlu ambil jalan ke kiri dan bukan terus sampai ke Blok A. Oleh kerana kedua-dua Najiah dan Yin tidak memberi sebarang petunjuk untuk ke kafe atau ko-op, dia beranggapan mereka akan terus pulang ke bilik. Dia tidak kisah pun, dan sibuk mencongak-congak di dalam kepala hendak membeli roti jenis apa. Sudah lama tidak membeli roti. Baik tengok tarikh luput sekali.

Tiba-tiba, Yin turut sama membelok ke kiri walaupun dia masih tekun memandang dan menekan punat-punat telefonnya. Dia jadi hairan.

“Saya naik dulu ya?” Seru Najiah.

“Ya,” dia membalas. “Awak nak pergi mana, Yin?” Tanya dia, penuh rasa ingin tahu.

“Tadi awak cakap nak pergi ko-op,” balasnya. Masih taat dengan telefon. Jalan pun tak tengok depan.

Yalah, itu aku. Kau nak pergi mana? Tadi kata nak balik bilik. Hatinya tidak dapat bersabar dengan jawapan yang tidak memuaskan daripada Yin tadi. Separuh jalan ke ko-op, dia bertanya lagi.

“Awak nak pergi mana, Yin?” Dia bertanya lagi, menahan rasa ingin tahu yang membuak-buak.

“Tadi awak cakap nak pergi kafe kan?” Kata Yin. Akhirnya mengangkat muka daripada skrin telefon.

Walaupun masih tidak berpuas hati dengan jawapan yang sama itu, dia memutuskan untuk senyap sahaja dan terus ke ko-op. Bagus juga ada orang teman.

Dia memilih satu roti keju, Twiggies perisa vanila dan biskut Chipsmore pek kecil. Banyaklah pula makan, bisiknya lagi. Ah, lapar. Walaupun pukul 10 tadi sudah makan sepinggan nasi ayam di kafe dengan Najiah. Macam mana nak kurus ni, rungutnya dalam hati. Langsung ke kaunter dan membayar. Perempuan tidak dapat mengasingkan dua buah fikiran dan mengaitkannya antara satu sama lain. Seperti “Mengapa diet saya tidak berhasil?” dan “Saya rasa nak makan coklat sikit lagilah.”, begitu yang dia pernah baca dalam Reader’s Digest.

Lepas Asar petang itu, Kak Syuhada (dia seru Kak Ada sahaja, kerana kakak senior itu adik ipar kak lang) mengajak dia keluar ke Kampung Raja kerana dia sudah minta Kak Syuhada memberitahu bila mahu keluar kerana dia bimbang wang sakunya tidak dapat bertahan sebelum dia pulang ke Kemaman minggu hadapan. Dia ingin ke mesin ATM BSN di pejabat daerah Besut.

“Mesin out of service,” begitu bilang seorang pak cik yang mungkin juga ingin mengeluarkan wang dari ATM. Dia terasa agak kecewa tetapi memutuskan dia boleh menghadapi perkara ini. Tak apalah. Bukan duduk di KL. RM50 insya-Allah boleh bertahan sampai minggu hadapan.

“Semalam dah keluar ke Jertih kenapa tak withdraw terus?” Kata Kak Syuhada sambil terus memandu Viva. Dia jadi senyap. Terasa diri ini menumpang. Walaupun dia pasti sangat-sangat Kak Syuhada tiada sekelumit niat pun mahu menyinggung perasaannya.

“Tak apalah Kak Ada. Tak payah buat keluar duitlah,” katanya perlahan. Tak mahu menyusahkan orang lagi.

“Tak adalah. Lain kali withdraw terus,” kata Kak Syuhada lagi. Dia sudah jadi diam sungguh-sungguh. Terasa mahu terbang ke Kemaman sekarang dan siapkan lesen keretanya. Itulah, dulu penakut nak ambil pré-test, dia mengutuk diri. Lepas langgar tiang parking dua batang, hatinya jadi kecut dan dia tidak pulang-pulang ke tapak latihan memandu kereta itu lagi. Pak Jat yang mengajarnya itu pasti hairan dengan kehilangannya yang tiba-tiba.

Kak Syuhada dan temannya, Kak Anirah bawa dia ke pasar malam Kampung Raja. Dia tidak gembira dan kalau ikutkan dia, dia mahu berlari pulang ke Kampus Sultan Mizan, tetapi dia ikutkan sahaja. Dia tahu dia sedang pura-pura senyum dan pegang payung Kak Anirah (kerana dia lebih tinggi daripada Kak Anirah macam kalau pengapit pun sesuai lebih tinggi daripada pengantin supaya senang nak payungkan) yang merah jambu.

Dia beli yong tau fu sebanyak RM2, keropok keping (keropok selipar, gelar kak cik) RM2 dan secucuk ayam yang harganya RM1. Ini bukan lapar ni, ini sedih. Dia tidak pasti kenapa dia sedih tetapi hujan yang renyai buat Kak Syuhada dan Kak Anirah tidak perasan wajahnya yang tidak ceria. Dia harap begitulah. Dia tidak kuasa hendak senyum-senyum lagi. Sudahlah stokinnya habis basah dek lopak air hujan yang banyak. Dia rasa seperti hendak demam sahaja.

Sampai di bilik, hatinya berdetak lagi. Hai, macam mana nak kurus? Tapi dia pasang juga cerita Doraemon the Movie: Nobita’s New Adventure into the Magic Planet. Tajuk panjang dan ceritanya juga panjang. Sudah berbulan-bulan pun dia tidak habis lagi menonton filem itu. Sampai habis yong tau fun yang sedap itu pun, cerita itu belum habis. Dia tutup kerana sudah Maghrib. Lain kali saja sambung.

Maghrib itu, Mira teman sebiliknya ada jamuan meraikan senior-senior mereka di semester lapan. Yalah, sudah semester terakhir. Tambahan pula mereka rapat dengan senior-senior Maths itu. Haruslah mereka yang junior ini buat sesuatu sebagai tanda penghargaan. Dia bukan budak Maths jadi dia tidak terlibat dengan jamuan bertema hitam putih itu. Retro sekali. Dia tonton sajalah mereka bersiap. Teman-teman sekelas Mira, Syima dan Dayah pun bersiap di bilik mereka. Itu tidak termasuk Along budak PJ yang jamuan mereka juga malam yang sama, sibuk meminjam cermin. Seolah bilik sebelah yang dikongsi dengan Najiah itu tiada cermin pula. Ramai sekali yang memenuhi bilik 302A malam itu.

“Budak PJ tiada warna temakah, Along?” Dia bertanya apabila memandang kurung ungu manggis yang disarung Along.

“Takde. Budak PJ bebas,” balas Along sambil bersungguh membetulkan pin tudung di cermin Mira.

Selepas melambai Mira, Syima, Dayah dan Sena (yang sungguh bergaya dengan kemeja jalur hitam-putih, tie dan tudung hitam), dia terasa demam sungguh-sungguh akan menyerang. Dia tarik selimut. Mujur mereka telah dapat extend tarikh untuk hantar tugasan ES sampai Isnin depan. Mdm. Dash (seru mereka untuk Puan Dashima daripada Jabatan Bahasa-bahasa) memang baik. Dia rasa bersyukur, menelan sebiji panadol dan lena sahaja. Mira pulang pun dia tidak sedar.

credit pic: blogs.monografias.com, niccolls.com, individualism.co.uk, reiki.whatitallbelike.com, downloadbox.org, http://www.thecartoonpictures.com/r-doraemon-239-doraemon-1024-1631.htm, trajes-de-noche.com

OneRepublic - Secrets

2010-11-07T12:02:00.000+08:00

OneRepublic - Secrets

n, n, n...-joy.

weekend movie marathon

2010-11-07T09:30:00.005+08:00

despite the fact that my isl (independent self-learning) tasks are still having a long way to go, i had a nice weekend movie marathon. it's the last week of the semester and i don't think anybody was in any mood to be stuck in the room and get busy. with work, i mean.

a nice movie, Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen is. i had always think of the Optimus Prime as a handsome robot; old-timer, almost solitude but strong and respected by his 'compatriots'.

okay. if you want to know more about the movie, just Google it. don't count on me. (last time i cut and paste from Wikipedia, i felt like a f fake.) all i can say; it's a nice movie, Megan Fox is a beautiful human and she and Shia Labeouf makes a sweet couple.

i found this movie among tens of other movies in an external (tq kak syikin^^) hard-drive. it has an interesting title and had i decided not to watch, i'd miss one of the hallmark-like movie. and i've always love hallmark-like story. light and although it messes with life's problems, they always made it looks easy to survive through.

anyway, The Accidental Husband was a fun movie. but i was a bit pissed when a sophia had easily let go of her love because some random doctor said the love of her life was not the right one. i mean, no woman in her right mind would do that when their wedding is two weeks away. preposterous. haha^^

and i re-watched two other movies; Twilight and The Handsome Suit. oh yeah, i never reviewed The Handsome Suit. some other time alright?

credit pic: transformers-2-trailer.blogspot.com, pinartarhan.com

sucking vampires

2010-11-04T00:53:00.004+08:00

okey. honestly, it's like watching twilight and new moon in a new, tortured and distorted way. it's all wrong, but it's one of the best parody i've watched in a while (not that i'm a huge fan of parodies).

go watch. it's a great laugh.
and no, vampires don't suck. they bite. (and let's face it, pattinson is one great human specimen^^ - physically)

credit : moviemobsters.com

angin merah, bukan marah

2010-11-02T17:02:00.002+08:00

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kenapa tajuk yang sentapp macam tu?

haha. sekadar mengemaskini cerita-cerita angin merah jambu, merah darah, merah delima dan merah buah naga tempoh hari.

haruslah aku beritahu semula kepada kamu apa yang terjadi selepas kisah aku 'tidak ada strategi untuk menang' itu aku telah -dengan rajinnya- pos ke ruangan ini. atau kalau kamu tak baca pun aku tak kisah sangat. sebab ruangan ini kan untuk aku mengepos memori? (atau bekukannya, macam apa yang aku tulis dengan tulisan warna biru itu)

baiklah, baiklah. kisah itu sudah tamat tarikh luput ya? lupakan sajalah impian untuk tahu nama dia suatu hari nanti sebab aku sudah besar panjang dan sudah layak disaman kalau aku menulis tentang sesuatu yang hak orang lain tanpa kebenaran pemiliknya (nama pun hak milik juga kan? sampai di 'sana' pun kita akan diseru dengan nama ini).

jadi sampai situ sahaja kisahnya. bosan saja kisah aku ini. tidak ada pengakhiran yang lebih menarikkah? yang lebih mengujakan seumpama kisah Cinderella & Prince Charming?

namanya pun sebuah cerita. naratif penuh rasa dari seorang pencerita.

kredit: rajaresep.com

come one come all, to this very happy affair

2010-11-01T20:08:00.005+08:00

and no, the above is not an invitation. it is merely a copy-and-edit from a line of an MCR song. i was a big fan once (and i mean, die-hard-fan. seriously).

but wait, you should have catch me there - a not-an-invitation to what? haha. that, i can't really say. after all, he whose event is going to take place admitted to me once he always checks up on my blog once in a while. just for fun and have a glance at my recent life, he said.

let's leave it at two words - an engagement. there.

fellow 1st sem-ers (june '10 intake) are facing examination whereas we teslians are off the hook - until the 3rd sem that is. then, we are the dead ones. 3 semesters in one exam - i think we have a truly frightening experience up front. but until then, sit back, support fellow 1st sem-ers and enjoy an Ella song on Era.fm. life is cold (monsoon season is hitting east coast).

alright, alright. it's november already. sem 1 is coming to an inevitable end, can you believe that? haha.

we usually go to kl during this time of the year, make a mess in a hotel room and squeeze every bit of strength in our legs to fulfill the true meaning of the wise saying - shop till you drop!

come to think of it, is that wise?

anyway.

this year, i was thinking about something different. a month and a half in pulau pinang had made me realize that penang is a cool place to go and shop - or visit. whicever comes first.

the taste of 'bakso' from a stall inside of seberang prai city mall still lingers on my taste buds (figuratively speaking).

will they succumb to my request? it's not that i don't see the glass as half full - it's i'm afraid they don't.

i just hope kl is on this year. i need a vacation. not badly, but yes i need one. who doesn't? especially when you don't face an exam that year (this is where you give a huge mocking laugh^^).

enough about vacation. it's not that i don't get enough oxygen in besut, it's the lack of carbon dioxide (or more like, the absence of it has made me forget what it's like, although it is good for the asthmatic condition. can't complain).

i stumbled upon (again) a VERY good article on facebook (or rather, a note) but i won't share it on my wall because, well, because it's... well...

check it out yourself, will you? follow--> http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=166863376675845&id=100000350714598 (sorry. i tried make it clickable. you know, like when you post a link, and people can just click on the link. it didn't work. maybe i'll try again some other time)

credit: http://www.facebook.com/note.php?note_id=388289804219, citydriver.wordpress.com

tale as old as time~

2010-10-27T10:15:00.005+08:00

how words should define it?

it's beautiful. really.

it's an old movie but i haven't got the chance nor the urge to watch it. unlike snow white, cinderella and the likes, they were so easy to find and therefore plenty of opportunities for me to catch up with them, but the case was different with this tale as old as time.

Beauty and the Beast (French: La Belle et la Bête) is a traditional fairy tale. The first published version of the fairy tale was a rendition by Gabrielle-Suzanne Barbot de Villeneuve, published in La jeune américaine, et les contes marins in 1740. The best-known written version was an abridgement of her work published in 1756 by Jeanne-Marie Le Prince de Beaumont, in Magasin des enfants, ou dialogues entre une sage gouvernante et plusieurs de ses élèves; an English translation appeared in 1757.

In 1991, Walt Disney Feature Animation produced a musical animated film entitled Beauty and the Beast, directed by Kirk Wise & Gary Trousdale, with a screenplay by Linda Woolverton, and songs by Alan Menken & Howard Ashman. Like the 1946 version, the Disney version also names Beauty "Belle" and gives her a handsome suitor (here named Gaston) who eventually plots to kill the Beast. Other aspects of the story are changed or added as well: In the Disney version, Belle's father (here called Maurice) is an inventor, not a merchant, and Belle is his only daughter. Belle is befriended by the Beast's servants, who have been transformed into household objects. There is also an element of Bluebeard in it, in the sense that she is told, early on in the Beast's castle, not to go in a certain chamber, but disobeys him out of curiosity. Beauty and the Beast won Academy Awards for Best Song and Best Original Score, in addition to becoming the first animated film to be nominated for an Academy Award for Best Picture. It was also one of only two animated films included in AFI's 100 Years... 100 Passions list, which announced the 100 greatest love stories of all time, and is now considered one of the Walt Disney Company's classic animated films.

the urge didn't come (and i call myself an avid cartoon fan) up until mr. j (my language development lect.) put on the video of Beauty and the Beast theme song. then it occured, YOUTUBE! (hahaha...technology-literate konon:P)

and then i started watching. 9 parts altogether (10mins each). truth to be told, i watched it once when i was 4 i think. but i watched it halfway and the story was so complicated for my young, undisturbed mind (then-lah).

i never thought the story was so beautiful. i especially love all of the talking furnitures and clock and candles! haha. disney doesn't make it as cute as this anymore.

go enjoy. especially if you haven't.

credit: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Beauty_and_the_Beast#Film_versions

language development 1 class

2010-10-26T12:00:00.003+08:00

we were learning how to write a memo. don't ask me why a teacher needs to know that. but i'm a hell of a memo-writer now. haha.

a memo : a document typically used for communication within a company. memos can be as formal as a business letter and used to present a report.

so, at the top we just write the word MEMORANDUM. i had a typo once and i wrote MEMORANSUM instead.

RANSUM = RANSOM

so i figured, next time you're thinking about kidnapping a child,

and you don't want to put a cloth on your mouth when speaking through the phone (we are using a very old-school technique to ask for ransom money), you can simply send a MEMO-RANSOM.

okay, that's enough 'mengarut' for one day.

credit:
*http://writing.colostate.edu/guides/documents/memo/pop2a.cfm
**wallpapers-mobilewallpapers.blogspot.com

"Lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan yang baik."

2010-10-23T15:47:00.003+08:00

-please stop your reading here unless you want to feel like throwing up for the next five minutes. or more. or less. i don't know.-

sudah berhari-hari saya ditiup angin manis merah jambu bertatah rasa penuh suka dari Laut China Selatan (memanglah kampus saya ini letaknya tak jauh dari Pantai Bukit Keluang, tetapi saya sedang bermetafora. sebab itu saya galakkan anda berhenti membaca sekarang. saya baru terkena demam Noor Suraya-lagi).

kalau betul-betul hendak berkira, hari ini sudah hari kelapan. masih juga tidak kebah-kebah rasa terawang-awang ini. bak kata zul di Penang; "Sudah parah awak ni."

sampai semalam, saya merasakan sayalah calon yang paling sesuai dengan dia (kalaulah dia sedang mencari calon) dan dengan penuh perasan sekali berkali-kali menyatakan dalam diri saya, tiada sesiapa yang lain lebih sesuai!

namun Allah itu Yang Maha Merancang. sebagai manusia hina yang cacatnya bertambun-tambun (bukan fizikal, alhamdulillah setakat ini bukan. kita sedang bercakap secara batiniah ya?), dalam perjalanan pulang dari Kota Bharu semalam, saya terfikir, termalu dan rendah diri sekaligus. mujurnya saya belum terbawa-bawa dengan rasa sekuman yang Allah dah campakkan dalam hati saya ini.

betullah itu ujian. Allah tidak menguji hamba-hambaNya lebih daripada yang mereka mampu (padahal baru lagi bertemu ayat itu - husna nilah!).

bak kata kak lang, "Baik Allah uji kita dengan kesusahan. Kalau dengan kesenangan, biasanya kita akan leka!"

terima kasih kak lang. kadang-kadang pesan-pesanmu tidak hadir sewaktu aku betul-betul patut ulang baca dengan penuh penghayatan. (pesan-pesannya sekarang selalu melalui SMS. ialah, sudah belajar jauh kan sekarang? - walaupun Besut itu masih daerah negeri Terengganu)

perasaan suka, seronok dan terpesona kepada dia itu ujian. yalah, waktu suka, seronok dan terpesona itu mudahnya mata menyorot langkah-langkahnya; pandang sahaja dia di mana-mana, dewankah, kelaskah. tanpa malu-malu lagi. sedangkan ada zina ya di situ husna - zina mata namanya!

lalu husna kalah dengan ujian Allah padanya. sudah lebih seminggu juga dia kalah. masih belum ada strategi untuk menang lagi.

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hati suka marah saya begitu. tapi dia juga yang tak jemu-jemu memaksa mata untuk terus-terusan melihat dan memandang. kalau boleh merenung pun dia nak! (tapi kata 'merenung' itu kan lebih sesuai kalau saya dapat melihat dengan jelas. saya rabun tetapinya. nikmat yang Allah sudah tarik itu kadang-kadang memang padan dengan muka saya ini.)

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sudah Asar-lah husna. kata tadi nak berubah, nak jadi yang lebih baik? sebab perempuan yang baik untuk lelaki yang baiklah, betul? (ya, tetap masih ada hati pada dia. kan sudah dibilang tadi - belum ada strategi untuk menang.)

ping!

my fun weekend (even though today is only Friday)

^-^

much salivating~

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Director:

Writer:

Stars:

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ping!

i do cherish you! i do!

peringatan....-.-

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malu lahh~

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it's when i know i shouldn't the most is when i'll just keep a straight face a do it anyway =='

hilarious, sir =='

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why not dating first baru kawen?

up north to... Pennsylvania?

"green 'bee' sounds kinda lame."

terima kasih, thank you, arigato gozaimasu, merci, tausend dank..etc

forgive n forget

out of the picture

it's personal

worth

when they say

one last time~

Flavour

practically am embarrassing myself. dot.

welcome back, young jedi.

fever everywhere