eee lamanya tak datang sini. but I was wondering kat mana nak curhat tapi taknak my friends from any socmeds nampak. rasa nak mengarut. then I remembered...blog.
nak cerita apa ya.
i think 2024 has been a solid sad year because my dad passed away. he passed away in may, after being sick for a few months. i mean his health has been declining but of course we were hoping he'd bounce back. however as Muslim, we know, we understand and we accept it's a part of life. now it's been over a year. still hurts, to think about. i recently cried again, thinking how he never got to see me get my masters and see me get married. delayed grief. i read that somewhere online. i didn't cry much masa ayah passed. ada sibling kata i did not cry masa tu. not true. i cried by myself. a lot.
less than four months later, i met the man who's gonna be my fiance now. well i met him online, didn't think that it would turn into anything serious. but he's very serious about finding someone. did not play around. and..idk. everything went pretty smoothly. alhamdulillah. we only met twice before we got engaged. that's...very crazy if you think about it. but, at the same time, feels very right. i guess that's what jodoh feels like. i like most things about him. so far, no apparent red flag. in sha Allah there's no red flag. differences ke apa tu biasalah. raikan perbezaan - my TPO.
1st half of 2025 has been me trying frantically to complete my research for me to graduate my master's degree and engagement & early wedding preparation.
alhamdulillah, got engaged in april and completed my research in august. and i mean completed, completed. waiting for printing and binding, completed. alhamdulillah ya Allah.
do you know, how long this master's degree journey is for me? i managed to:
1. confessed to an old crush, had a kinda sorta situationship with him. broke things off after seven months.
2. approached by a random auntie who saw me some 10 years ago, got engaged to her son. did not vibe. he broke things off after six months. i still have the ring. might sell it later to enjoy the money haha.
3. met a guy online. did not think this guy would be the one. really thought he's gonna take off before i even learn his full name. plot twist: he investigated my real name the moment he got my phone number. bigger trust issue than i have (sorry love :p)
2020-2025. six whole years. graduating with a husband, in sha Allah.
(note: ada orang doa macam tu kat i sebenarnya when i started this journey. "nanti gi buat master kat uia jumpa jodoh." technically, that's corrrect. he lives his whole life in gombak, next to uia. the thing is, dia takde dalam kampus tu! he was there, many many years ago when he did his undergrad.)
okay readers. itu sajalah. doakan jodoh kami panjang sampai ke syurga. thanks for reading!
