It was not official. (okay, in the cases of me liking someone, I have to tell it to my closest friends because it only feels real then.) I have only told Ac, which is compulsory. But no one
from IP yet. Not telling because:
a. I haven’t met anyone as trustworthy as Ac. (well yes that fact is debatable but she is my bff)
b. I don’t want to because it’s one thing to tell Ac, it’s another to tell to my newfound friends in IP. Besides, they might have a bad news to deliver if I tell them. Bad news like, he has a gf? Haha. So not knowing means I can still pretend he’s single – even if I’m dying to know if he is.
c. I am still an 18-year-old girl with no mature views of life. (and Ac said this too. I’m not mature enough yet? Is maturity compulsory for me to try to jump into a relationship? – ok, the phrase “jump” was already a dead giveaway)
Okay I should stop before I give anymore dead giveaway. Cause I would like to avoid that. Liking him this bad makes it even harder to perform in class – even more than usual.
*There is one way, I think to find out if I’m ready for this kind of stuff. My sis cried for her bf all the time. Maybe it’s time I test that theory.
2 comments:
dari hari tu duk pk.. shud i comment on this or not.. n wut if it caused more embarrassment.. nway.. gatal nk komen jugak..
my dear husna, it's called 'youth'. i think almost everyone experience the same thing (at least i do! back at school, in matrix, in college, n uni). but bare in mind that someday, you'll find someone just for you. insyaAllah..
i dont want to say, u shud focus on ur study, jaga hati, bla bla bla.. just cherish your feelings. maybe sometimes you'll be hurt. but that's life. you gain from experiences, n maybe someday, when you look back at it, you'll have a good laugh bout it.
like a quote that i posted:
“i cherish my memories, the good & bad. Someday, i’ll be stronger & they can’t hurt me anymore.”
-momiji, fruits basket
gambatte!!
ps: bought more handkerchief @ tissue ;p
arrr....teacher....
u have just caused more embarrassment...(blushing)
i know, i know. it hurts but at the same time i felt happy. as if a part of the experiences i suppose to feel is complete. haha. i know it's preposterous but it kept happening. haha^^
nway, thanks teach. i'll be ok. not like it's the first time;)
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